something shifted today. not because of any intent on my part, it just
the day was relatively normal for a "work" day. with the added beginning of the Tai Chi class. although i am still awkward, i am very much less so. it is the third week of twice weekly learning. the sciatic thing is pretty much gone, unless i "push it". there was a tendency tonight when i came home, to dig one more tree well out and fill in the mulch. but maybe most important of all, i didn't do that. instead, i thought about cloth. i thought about how my daughter is in California for six days visiting Her daughter. i called her there and she related her day with her grandson. they took a walk. which ended with getting a push-up ice cream at the gas station. he was very interested in the mechanism of the push-up. then they came home and had a nap.
after the phone call, i went outside to smell the lilacs. and as i was leaning in to a bloom, something vibrated the air so close to my cheek that my hair moved.... the Pandora Sphinx. so completely absorbed in the nectar of the blooms that she was almost part of me.
not knowing exactly what to do next, i leafed through the current issue of Buddhadharma that had arrived in the mail today and saw a photograph of a round building...that it seems, will not appear here. but i will try tomorrow to place it. but i saw it, and knew that however it all goes, life will be supported. i may very well not know the form, but it will be supported.
my mind is full of images of cloth making tonight.