But, here, Robyn asked about the milking the other day and this is as good a time as any to say things about that. Julian arrives tomorrow or Sunday and i don't really know how that will effect things....again, that veil of unpredictable with unknown outcome. i want to say the things about the milking telling just the facts as much as i can. let go the narrative, the qualifiers, the adjectives and adverbs and just say the facts. so, here goes.
i missed the "window" for most of it. there is a space of time between 2 weeks of the goats nursing their young ones and continuing good milk production. i was learning to milk during this time. i was unable to deal with separating the babies from their mothers during the night. this last week...
i was sliding back into narrative. No.
so...i could say that i failed. and it feels some like that. missed the opportunity, for sure.
but i have, in 3 months completely transformed this acre. with pens and spaces and fences and worlds. 14 baby goats have been born. healthy. beautiful.
i have learned to milk by hand, with the MaggieDan. i will be ready when we try again.
What i realized in a very difficult moment last week is that what i most want to do now is learn the ways of these creatures. i want to create relationships with the 4 doelings we will keep for now. Understand more about how they experience this world.
This is enough.
and so...it will be Spring when the window will appear again. i think i will be more ready then. but who knows? things are "unpredictable, with unknown outcome".
These are the goats that have patiently stood on the milkstand.