there are many ways i could approach this post and i am too tired to think ahead so it will be interesting to see what appears here in the little white box and the letters appearing as my fingers go along the keyboard.
that laundry hanging on the line yesterday...it's where i'd gotten to when my Friend arrived. Once we unloaded her vehicle into the refrigerater and here and there in the house there was a little over
hours of non stop conversation. and i mean that totally literally. Non Stop. She would speak, i would speak, she again, i again. till after 1 oclock in the morning.
What do i want to say here? What is Of Use to say? I didn't get to do my Calendar thing. i had them set out. she knew it. and once even commented, Oh, Your Calendar Ritual....but then the talking just went on with a life of it's own.
And i guess really, although there was a LOT, i guess really it ends up being about how You Never Know. about how things rise up in a life and you either go toward them or not. if you go toward them you find yourself doing the best you can which what presents as it goes. She is almost ten years older than i so, has ten more years of living, and really, these years that come after we begin to go into the long stretch are seemingly HEAVY with purpose and meaning even tho we don't know what that Purpose and Meaning exactly is. so...i listened and responded, offered. Her beloved is now dead. she again, Begins again. most likely for the last time. and what it boiled down to really, is
Just Going. Jude...i appropriate here.....
Just Going. Ha!
so ok. ok then.
tonight then. not on the Eve, but on the Day. because there was Just Going to be done.
and almost on the heels of her leaving this morning the Goat helping guy called that he had the perfect window of time to make that final Gate i envisioned, ?????
and i felt like i'd been run over by a truck but then..Why Not? so the rest of the afternoon was the final gate. Here in this pic you see it superimposed against the old gate, the wooden one, which i will take off probably tomorrow after i get the hardware to secure the new cattle panel/wire fence gate that will allow the Goats to SEE. unimpeded, and in my hopefull imagination, make that transition, that migration back and forth from Front to Back easier for them.
so...i am about done for. and i am going to do the last night's Calendar Work and then...Crash in my wind scented sheets. Wake tomorrow and Just Go.