SO. This morning i "got somewhere". O hallelujah!
The last time i had to "work" so hard was around 30 some years ago when i Understood that i needed, like NEEDED to learn to meditate.
This last period of time felt as urgent, as Necessary, but i had no clue really about which direction. Patricia, followingthread.wordpress.com asked me some questions in an email yesterday. Things she wondered about what i'd been saying here about Sorrow...to clarify where i was coming from. For this, i am grateful. In thinking about the questions and in trying to answer them, i pushed self this morning to Keep Going. And where i got to is GOOD. this is in part the response email and i'm just putting it here because it's enough for now. Goats are stirring and i'll need to go out. From the email reply:
This morning your words pushed me to read more. I didn't want to. Was feeling like i just want to do nothing for a while. But your words caused me to formulate a thought....that what we are experiencing has exceeded the limitations of the Personal and opened into the vast space of the Collective and that word, Collective...in the Jungian sense ....was the key to where i DID get to just now. I think we are willing to look at what we have no way to SEE, as in understand, what we might be peering at. Because it is NEW. Just NEW. We are acting on a FeltSense that something is being asked of us but we don't know what it is or how to explain it to ourselves. It's evolution. Remember in Eckhart Tolle's book he oh so bluntly says Evolve or Die? Well, i think there is a Collective Awareness that that statement is not just an intellectual/spiritual one, but an Evolutionary Reality. We are Evolving. Whether we like it or not. Whether we have any clue about how it might feel. What the result might be. For us personally, but in that as part of Humanity as a whole. So i thank you for helping me get somewhere with it all this morning. i feel now like i have a direction...at least for Time Being...and that's all there is, Right?, Time Being?
So i wanted to get this down here. Because i feel like i'm on a roll. I feel like i am rolling forward through to the other side of Sorrow...at least for the Time Being. And here are my Teachers, my Touchstones for this part of the trip.
my son's daughter, Giana Lily Alluvial Fan
the work of Mary Evelyn Tucker
the work of Kristin Ohlson
The new thought of COLLECTIVE CONSCIOUSNESS
These things. Good Enought for Time Being. and eeeeeeeeeeEEEEEEEEEEE. what a Relief!