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looking for an image to show jude, and somehow came up with this one by accident.
it's Sandrock, one of the garden toads. tho i will go back and try to find the image i was looking for, this is good in the meantime, because she is "out there", somewhere, on this january morning....a comforting thought...
doesn't seem like a lot
there will be many more sun threads and moon threads. these in the center, are holding hands.
the moon, of course, is Glennis'...did i already say that? the sun is one of the beautiful pieces from Marti...it feels so good to have it on this cloth. the odd and beautiful black/white design is one of those unexpected things in life. when i saw the blouse on the rack at the thrift shop, i couldn't belive my eyes, then was heartbroken when i touched it....a horrible feeling synthetic. walked away, came back. walked away, came back....the design was just too magnificant. after i cut a small piece from it, i searched for the content label and saw.....the label: Gianni Versace made in Italy. that explains it. but, what was he thinking, not using cotton...we'll never know.
i want to get as much of this done before Saturday when Jude's class begins. i love this concept of a Theater for the cloths. i really don't have any idea what it means, but it means something that is holding my attention in an unusual way.
beginning with a beginning and then moving around it, as central to it all.
this kind of day is a challenge for me. different things going on, needing to move from one thing to the next and not get dis connected. i wanted to somehow get the top weaving of the Theater finished with invisible baste. continuing from last night, late, when i had basted the top and the bottom of the strips, two down, this morning i realized that i would want to insert things into the weave. change: invisible baste through the center of the woven strips leaving the edges top bottom sides able to take in whatever it might be.
Glennis' moon. yes. and there will be a Sun on the left (right of itself) of equal size. i can see them in my mind...not "rays" but their light flowing down. in this moment i am imagining small things in that "fermament" with and near them, wing things. we'll see.
the weaving of this part of the Theater has been stitched to a muslin backing which in turn will be stitched to that piece of skirt at some point. i realized that the skirt piece needed to be free of the "curtains" so that it's backdrop of the world could be pieced upon it.
so. i exhale long slow and completely.
inbetween this, the 12'X20' bones of the Hoophouse greenhouse were disassembled by the same 3 of us that assembled it. it was sad.
another person came bringing sacks of newspaper to use in starting fire in the wood stove.
AND time...FINALLY....to begin saying hello to all in the Contemporary Boro class....looking closely at their posted work, reading the words of greeting. how amazing! i think there are over one hundred of us!!! there is a REALLY good feeling to it~
so...what a day. a good, very good day.
i have this cloth of Jude's. her words for it when it was in her shop included these:
"a playing card sort of thing, maybe a hand you deal yourself".
so in this moment, it is in this Theater. the central strip remains in place to cover the seam.
jude's cloth is there only for the moment but i needed to see it there. it was/is a catalyst for a huge understanding that came with the thought: what if i had dealt that hand myself, to myself?
20 years ago, i was on "my way". i did not know a destination, but i was Going. then, a crossroad appeared and i hesitated, played a quick game of solitare and veered to the left. at first the new territory was beautiful and full of everything i wanted it to be. there was a magician and this world belonged to him. and slowly over time it became something quite different than in the beginning when it had fit perfectly into an illusion that i had yet to understand. it has been over for going on 6 years now. i had forgotten tho, so much. the spell was very strong and took a long time to even begin to wear off.
so the big question now is: Now What? and the understanding of the moment is that there IS no single and specific true answer. what is important is that i carry the question with me through each moment now, that i carry it Care-full y and Mind-full y. no time to waste anymore. not a tiny second.
these thing are important this morning:
a quote from HH the Dalai Lama: "Whatever is designated by delusion is to be acknowledged. Due to cultivating compassion while on the spiritual path, the fruition of full awakening is attained. Who attains awakening? That too, is to be established conventionally, without examination or analysis. In order to pacify the suffering of oneself and others, impure appearances that arise due to ignorance are not to be rejected."
Women Who Run With the Wolves Clarissa Pinkola~Estes
Laurie Anderson Big Science Let X=X on Utube
ShaSha Higby The Glass Jungle, White Ash on Water on Utube
many big thoughts arise this time of year, and this year, it seems more than usual.
there were many false starts and inbetween them all, this kept wanting to be looked at. at first, it was to be entirely woven. now, i am not sure. will let it rest a little. let the thoughts rest a little.
ok....let's see what happen here??????
