no Wind. finally. after 6 months of Him. and what do we miss? Wind. it is hot. still. the Sun flows from the sky down upon this place. it's still, and incredibly blindingly bright with Sun. and, no Wind. hmmmm.
and i think this is a milkweed type being?
and i have not known how to feel about the fact that there have been no signs of a single toad. there is a longstanding community of toads here. i actually brought one from where i worked maybe 60 miles away in the beginning. i think there were others, well, there must have been. because over time, there has become a community. but this year...none yet. until this evening. was it because of the harsh winter??? or because i water maybe only half of what i usually do because of so much that died in the harsh winter???? thoughts. wonderings. sometimes i am tempted to just water for the imagined happiness of toads. but then, i think now, well....what about when i leave? then what? Acey's flower essense works on this with me. how to deal with these possibilities and remain true to all i would like to remain true to. it's complex. but..........look!.....this evening, while pulling weeds in the water bowl under the Grandmother Apricot tree..........
at first, i thought it was SandRock, a very longstanding friend, but no...i think a cousin. but i was .....uhhhhh, what was i? i was............. so just full. FULL. of joy. of reassurance. of....well, enough to say just this amazing RELIEF!!!!! such beautiful eyes. such a gentle kindness to remain while i ran into the house to get the camera. co-creation, yes. co-habitation, yes. and so much more.
and here we are. in this moment. maybe on the Diaries cloth????? i'm thinking not, but...who knows. not me.
Love to You All who wander over here and watch with me. i am thinking today how so much that is Loving Kindness. Thank You.
