all along, and most recently in Sun Moon Stars, there has been consideration of personal symbols. and whether or not directly or just as an undercurrent of thought it has been on my mind. for me, the eye, is a strong one. i am trying to know as much as i can about Why.
i go about my days that add up to my life looking. sometimes my looking causes me to pause a long long while. sometimes it has to be fast, as in just now, beyond my right shoulder as i write this there was a flash of movement and color and i turned and saw, for just an instant, that the Tanagers are back FOR the salt cedar ...brightly marked and colored birds that come for brief periods of time to dangle from the twigs of this brushy tree like christmas ornaments. so, i saw that, with my eye, for just an instant before it flung itself off and my eye talked to my brain and the result is that my Heart was joyfull and comforted. SOMETHING is going on out there that is according to an Order that had become familiar to me over these 16 years. i am relieved to see this.
so..that is just a momentary example. and as i think about this cloth that i seem to be wanting to begin in Magic Diaries as i understand Magic Diaries to be at this point in my Mind's Eye, i probably will want to begin envisioning my personal symbols and re-creating these in this cloth.
i have looked a lot of hours at this first eye. moving the just 4 small fragments of cloth around so many times, seeing how just a very slight tilt of any of them changes the sense of this eye, in a very interesting way, changes the feeling of what this eye might be seeing, how this eye looks upon........ me, my little diorama, me in my movements in my diorama. do i want that?, or do i want an eye that expresses a different interest or view. do i want an eye that has no interest in me?, an eye that perceives in so totally different way, like maybe an insect's eye might*....registering me, as just a large moving object of little consequence. or a lizard's eye ..... how with my own eye i look into its eye and there seems to be some kind of very Sure exchange. we behold eachother. *except for Praying Mantis
so, eyes are a lot to think about.
and this particular eye, no matter how it "comes out", no matter whether or not i "like" it, will be stitched into this cloth. there might be more. again...i am just daydreaming now till Diaries begins.
and i also, while working on this eye, have become more and more clear about how, uhhhhhhh, Spirit Cloth is my school. my school as in where i go with total regularity to learn. i learn from what Jude teaches directly, i learn from just how she sees her world, her diorama, her cat, her ecosystem outside, the interface of her outside/inside, On and On and i learn from my sister students by being amazed and informed by their work within this school, their oh so unique interpretations of their learning.
