i identify tonight as the Beginning of my present self. actually, it was sometime at the end of October, 2009....but i didn't really realize it fully until November.
some time around then, i dared to make my first comment on Spirit Cloth. actually, it was the first comment on a blog . and i remember saying that i knew my life would change. and this has turned out to be true. Truer than i could ever have guessed.
and over time, i have watched as things have woven together from long long ago through the days to the present in the form of cloth making. the other day, when i took that pic of the three things on the wall "for Helen", i wondered about it. Why did i do that? hmmm. and then today, i knew.
i found this piece of shell at a yard sale in Ann Arbor Michigan around 40 years ago. it was in a shoebox of Free Stuff. little bits of broken jewelry, buttons. i couldn't believe my eyes. but i also didn't ask if it was some kind of mistake. i just set it on the card table when i paid for other things then picked it up and left. holding it...just as in the pic above.
it has been in many places since but always near. most recently, on the wall as you see it in that pic.
today over at Magic Diaries, Jude talks about eyes. since i can first remember, which was when i was maybe 3, i have had a thing for eyes. everything has eyes. eyes of a sort. but eyes. i have drawn eyes more than anything else all my life. eyes are where Life shows Itself. if you look for eyes, you can know things about what is happening.
there is that reflection of light in a living eye. if the thing is dead, it doesn't reflect. i remember studying this in dead things i found and buried when i was very young. i studied this. like a scientist even though i was a very young child. i have always been interested in what Life is and what is non life. and what the difference is. and why.
so eyes.
can?i put Her kind of eyes in this cloth? how? should i?
