day after maybe my most conflicted American holiday and i read there are going to be 150 million shoppers out there this weekend. i spent yesterday trying to ease the Alz. person i am involved with of her conflicted feelings about her less than satisfactory Thanksgiving. i did this by arriving at her house at the crack of dawn to begin chopping celery and onions for the stuffing for the smallest turkey i could find which was 10.85 lbs. for the two of us. many of her feelings rose from her difficulty with her mind, but really, the ones that were hardest to deal with for me were from her bitterness and anger about not having the kind of Thanksgiving Day to which she feels entitiled. and she would like to be driven into Albuquerque today for shopping.
we all have our own thinking about ThanksGiving, Christmas. Holidays. she is only typical. one generation older than i. and probably the poster child for it all.
but to be perfectly honest, i don't think i can pull this off one more year. i have tweaked my interpretation of Thanksgiving and Christmas for many years now, but somehow, even when my own family has for the most part gotten the drift, i find myself having all these feelings again and again and again. and somehow these two holidays seem to be the beginning and end and beginning of a cycle that continues for the next year. i NEED to identify and then BEGIN really doing many things differently this year. i am tired of saying, "Oh well".
So, i don't know. but instead of Black Friday, today is finally again Cloth Friday. more kantha. and a lot of deep thinking. things have to change.
