today i just wanted to see what those birds might look like, flying in an arc over Jude's lizard. i snipped up the first black piece of cloth i saw...which won't be it, because it frays too much...but just to look.
and then, i thought to just try something butterfly ish. it had come to me upon waking this morning that the butterflies would be rising , in like a cloud on the right, up from that "room" with the lightning, the room of storms where the toads have put their eggs. hanging over the back of the chair was the piece of cheesecloth that i'd used to make paneer the other day. washed and then hung over the chair to dry. ok. and i should know better by now, but i still am always wanting to use guaze. but...just to look at, while the urge was strong.
and looking at these, i found this drawing i'd come across some days ago, in the most recent purge of stuff. i have very few left, but had kept this. it's so typical of my "style". i drew it in 1996. if i were to try to draw something similar now, it would look much the same i think. it, like everything i make has a "cartoonish" quality. if i literally COPY someone elses drawings, i can render then correctly. but when it just rises up out of my mind...it always looks like this. i cannot make it different. and the addition of these black birds today kinds of emphasizes that quality in this cloth. i am wondering if i made the birds smaller and made more birds...what would that do?
