a day of Hot dry Wind that was FULL of requirements away from home. and coming home, needing to hurry before dark to do what needed to be done. and then, being able to do what Wanted to be done for a while.
it's a quite large skirt i found a while ago. very interesting design..many what do you call them, gores??? like inverted triangular shape inserts???? gores, i think. anyway, i have this idea for the Boro 2 class and i went through all the possible candidates for perfect fabric...this won out. but none of the panels were the right size and so...i spent the evening taking it all apart. i'll piece together pieces that ARE.
finally going to bed, i woke a couple hours later to that Moon, directly in the window that is at the head of the bed. a cool breeze was fluttering the Green Tara wall tapestry. i watched that for a while, listening to the night sounds. i love it when i wake up like this....if i just wait a little while, everything i am dealing with during the day is so plainly laid out.... a lot of times i don't remember, don't try. but last night, i was so grateful. i NEEDED this.
ordinarily when things seem to be crowding up, i begin each day with a list of what really needs to get done that day. a vertical list. prioritized. but recently, it seems that this doesn't work...that it's a Horizontal listing of all #1 s............ALL are top priority. and there is also a strong sense of a very fragile balance. a sense that a lot of things can slide on the side of going "wrong", or becoming very complicated beyond my knowing what to do. And add to this, Jude's really amazing Boro 2 class which is bringing to light SO MUCH above and beyond stitching. at this point i am just watching that, but am very energized by how much the concept of Boro, of Mending is really a complete metaphor for the Whole of my life. and this is taking me one step closer to being about to find that state of equilibrium that is in quiet Response to life rather than Reaction. this is beyond great. What If something does go wrong? What If things become too complicated? When these feelings arise, rather than following an urge to Prevent by figuring out some way to control things, i find self just stopping and "looking" and realizing ........ok.......well, i'll just MEND it, as best i can, IF needed. and the "as Best i can" part is critical. Meeting what presents as it Arrives. Doing the Best i can.
the Mexican Elderberry is blooming
the Feather Grass is showing up EVERYWHERE....and Strong
AND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the Indian Rice Grass that has seemed to just barely hang on in it's original clump that i planted in a really inopportune place about 3 years ago....that has gotten NO water from me this spring....is SEEDING!!!!!!!!!!!! i have NO IDEA what to make of this.
and.......the goats. the babies are taking their rightful place in the herd. they no longer run for their lives during the feeding frenzy. hiding until it's quieted down. they now come to the periphery of the whirl and dart in and out. it's amazing how fast they are. goats are NOT gentle creatures when living in a small area and being given alfalfa and pellets. the competition knows no bounds. pushing, shoving, head butting. it's really something. this morning i see that Onday has some discharge and is "bagging up". so now, am watching closely. on the horizontal to do list for today is to take out all the towels, be sure i know where the collar and leash are, put a light bulb in the outside light and hook up the extensions. ok.
and so it goes.
