i don't really know what to say. it's all different. i know that i had intended to post lots of goat pics but that didn't happen. temps being at least 100, and friend Jane coming from Alaska, hmmmm.
and we didn't ready the goats for the albuquerque dairy goat show. it would have been cruel. prepping them and then hauling them. not. it's just Hot. so all those great "plans" got set aside.
so...What?, then???? Jane brought some photographs from when we were mid 20's. but she also brought this one. i really have no memory of it. but i do have this very INTENSE feeling about it.
it's not really a very complimentary pic. BUT it is somehow, a photograph of my Self that for some reason i really really love. and i am looking, and looking, trying to understand something. i think i was probably 19. i know it was before my kids. i know, i think, it was before my marriage to my kids father at 21. Nineteen. the look on my face has me mesmerized. there is something very similar that i am thinking/feeling in this pic that i am thinking/feeling Now. i remember the blouse. funny. but i very distinctly remember the blouse. and this sends a link over to Boro 2...to clothing....our costumes.
and i wasn't going to make a rectangle "robe" thing. again, Boro 2. but today, i began stitching pieces together into strips. maybe i am?
and i will say here that i am feeling somewhat adrift. it's the first time in going on 3 years that Jude has been Off Line. i am feeling that.
my bangs were sticking to my forehead. they were totally drooping and annoying. so...i got them into a rubberband and felt a little relief.
