maybe it will just stay this way?, kind of hovering of some sort. just on the edge of things. like this first small cloth since Magic Diaries and Boro...i am invisible basting. it has lost pieces and been turned sideways. today one of the Moon/Suns of Deb Lacative arrived but otherwise, nothing has come into view. but there is a strong sense that it Will
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was lying in the dirt in Jamie's yard. it's a 6ft plain off white cotton quiltish thing. someone gave it to her. she did'nt like it because it wasn't WHITE white. the exact reason i DID like it. all over it, even after a super duper wash at the laundromat, there are all these little black stars...they are the handiwork of mold it seem. so they are a reverse dark night universe. i like it a lot. it's stiff. it will be perfect in all ways for winter window coverings in the ROOM when i need to keep the cold out.
and then, i am still very much reading Lierre Keith's the Vegetarian Myth .... food, justice and sustainability. i wish she had chosen a different title...it's not really about how we personally choose to eat things, but rather how we USE the planet rather than be in wise partnership with it and all living things.... but i am beyond grateful to her for writing what she has written. there are words here that could have come from my heart, from my understand of how things are. really, it's the first time EVER that what i think in my own private moments have appeared on a page, or in the mouth of another person. i have felt so alone with this thinking. now i don't. and it is incredibly energizing.
so, rising from that, i have also been thinking of the Great Grandson Julian sometimes known as SunnyDay/DarkNight by his request. i spoke to him on the phone yesterday...it was his mom's 23rd birthday. but he and i talked about him coming here for some days. i told him that i was thinking maybe we could build a little World. out where the toads are. and we could build it how we want it. make ponds and stick bridges, stick houses. and we could make flags to hang down from the sky over these. he liked this. as much as being able to come and see "his" goats who he misses a lot. So, in the middle of everything today, i cleared the tree well under the Apricot Tree and set these things, just to see how it might go
so far, there is a butterfly..turtle..Raven..horse with bird..goat..lizard..dinosaur being..and a castle. I will just look at these for some days. i think, wait now until he's here. he can decide about more. we can go down the road to Polvadera Trading. a place BRIMMING with stuff...where i got two of my copper pots. She has a store full of antiques and oddities. we can look there fore more inhabitants of our World.
and i moved over two of the chairs, the small table. i trimmed off the low low branches of the tree so that we can sit there when his Nana, my daughter, comes. we can eat there, looking down upon our World. it's cool and shady. if we keep it wet, the toads will come every night. maybe that bat, too if we're lucky.
and back to about Magic, the young girl goat. i don't know enough yet to say much. i thought i would, but it's still in the making. But what she CHOSE was partnership. in talking with daughter Jenny and in telling her my own observations about the goats, i became clearer about how they vary so in their Interest in relationship with human beings. Some not at all. Some a LOT. and then there's Magic. who is deciding, being a thoughtful goat. and what is happening is that SHE is defining how it all can go. What I do is to respond to Her. but it's not far enough along yet to say a lot about. So, As It Goes.
