i had started out intending to document a dream here and it was lengthy and half way through i got a phone call about what's wrong with the car and by the time that was over, i had no energy left to finish documenting the dream, LONG, but...will just write the one moment at the end and it will help me remember it all....
the house (recurrent) (which is many stories tall) was just falling apart, like whole parts of it, just collapsing and i'm thinking....i can NEVER fix this....and there are all kinds of dried leaves and twigs in the kitchen, like piled and wind swept on the counters ...just everywhere...and i don't know what to do next and Suddenly, i look out the window and there is this long line, standing shoulder to shoulder, of African women...strong, healthy, robust women in beautiful cloth clothing and they are standing shoulder to shoulder and wearing woven kind of conical hats, all the same kind and the STATEMENT was...:
Each person [could] [should]...i don't know which word it was and that's the important part....
Each person could/should be responsible for the roof over their own head.
so...ok. and i had to be gone again today but when i got home i thought i'd take a 15 min nap and did and woke to look at the shelves at the end of the bed
mostly i was looking at that one RED piece which is the cloth i will make something with for my Son's first and only child that is coming in September. It, as is everything else on this shelf, is from the Thrift Shop. it's a mens shirt. almost all the cloth here is clothing. ALL is from the thrift shop. and it became a larger thought of how to overdye or otherwise change these fabrics so i actually USE them????? otherwise, What Is The Purpose Of Keeping Them???????
and i came out to wander around aimlessly and in that wandering saw a piece of fabric from Deb Lacativa that really, it was like seeing for the First Time and i pinned it to the Onion Skin Curtain and it is
Stunning
this window is the hardest to photograph. standing here, looking at it it is amazing. but trying to get the camera to show that is impossible....but...here, a little
and just looking at these helps me. i am in some kind of limbo and i know that if i begin a cloth, it will break. that thing about like being in a Fever and when it breaks, things happen. so...like that. Waiting for the Fever to break but i have to start a different cloth and i am thinking about how when i wake up in the morning lately, i lay there. Still. and THINK
THIS IS A VERY SINGULAR DAY. What will this day
HOLD??????
