this does not happen this time of year.
all last night, Thunder Man rambled around out there, all last night. just when you thought he was gone, nope. There he was again.
and i moved what i refer to as the Spy Chair around in the middle of the night, somewhere near 2 a.m. to see if i could figure out what was going on. but no. just Dark. so...ok.
and i dreamed. i have mentioned before that i have really strange dreaming. well, this one was
the most strange. it was about the Old Folks home. about Alz. b. and i ordinarily would keep
it to myself, because it is so wierd. but today, i think...Why?
so i dreamed that they called me to come. and i went. and just as i went through her door to her room (that she shares with two or three others), she SPRANG. Sprang out of her bed, all her skinny and boney self. and Sprang like a Holloween thing, all scarey and powerful and then, just infront of me was one of the CNAs (nursing assistants), all bloody and damaged, and from Alz b.
and then it switched to me trying to get some of the staff to pay attention to this scene, but they were having a meeting. and i couldn't get anyone to listen, really. so i go back and somehow someone had taken Alz B somewhere and she had been "debridded". She was all so very very small and had no skin. just her underskinself, but also very small. and lying there. all exposed to the air which i worried about...if might not feel ok to her. but then it went on, and too fast for me to remember it, but it turned out that she was just this very very small piece of membrane. maybe like 4x5 inches....and i kept losing her. couldn't keep track of her. but no one else seemed worried. and then we saw that one of the other residents had become trapped by a fallen wall size TV screen. she was lying there...flattened under it with her oxygen tubes still nicely in her nose.
so. this is the dream. there's more. but this is enough. and the really interesting thing to me, is that during these dreams, i am not really at all upset. but, in a certain way, Just Going. it's like, ok, now what?
