Work Away day. 2 jobs instead of one, ....i used to work 2 a day all the time. just some years ago, really, but gave that up. and today, i found self having no heart at all for it. just wanting to come home. the Grocery Store was brimming, as were people's shopping carts. hundreds of dollars of ingredients for Christmas Eve, Christmas Day. how wealthy we are in this country. i wanted a jar of dijon mustard. standing there, i should have counted, but there were SO many possibilities...maybe almost 10 brands of dijon? and i remembered how i experienced culture shock when returning from the Peace Corps experience in India in 1969. going to the grocery store. being completely undone by choice. standing there. just looking. leaving because i couldn't think.
but i chose a dijon mustard and then chose some Flowers to take to Alz B. tomorrow. i'll spend Christmas mid day with her. feed her lunch. she has always loved being brought flowers. not so much now. sometimes not at all now. but i thought it worth a try.
and then Paul the Magician of Fix arrived to access the leaking ceiling. so we climbed on the roof and saw a seperation and a .....sagging...eee....but he sussed it out, like Bob Marley, and will come on Saturday to correct the sag, to shore up the ceiling, to seal the seperated roof panels. All will be well. i Love Paul. i tell him that all the time. Paul loves to be loved. everything goes smooth.
there wasn't much of the day left, but i looked more. and enough to realize that i had begun this Cloth saying i was making something i had never seen before. and today that clicked. Why would i then, go forward putting things there that were so familiar? why don't i wait. be quiet. wait to find out really what's going on here? but then...
and i rummaged. looking for a cloth i'd made a long time ago, wanting to see what i'd done then, and making this messy mess even messier, but i didn't find it. it's in there, in one of these baskets. but i didn't find it. and all of a sudden, i didn't WANT to find it. This Cloth is THIS Cloth. Just be quiet and Wait. ok.
but i guess it was remembering India and i looked through the Pictures in here
and this is what i will make for New Year's Eve. which is the secular holiday i love. i cook. and eat and re VIEW my calendar and mark significant dates on the new calendar....things to remember of the previous year. What all will that be this time???????????????
