Before i went to lie face down upon Earth, i was given word from my old mentor in my other life, Kay. She said....GO. NPR. Terri Gross ~ Fresh Air ~interview May 10th with Sam Baker. Go. listen. she said. So this morning, first thing, after my face being "in the face" of Earth, i did as i was told. It is Extraordinary. He is an Extraordinary, Plain, and Honest human being. So, i don't know if it was face in Earth, listening to this interview or a combination of both, which i think is the truth, but i felt as if my whole self was so excruciatingly OPEN. I can't describe it in any other way. That has to do.
and then as i moved through the Morning Things, i thought about the above question. Am i looking too hard at Sorrow? For sure, there has been a ummm, quickening, of the sense of Urgency for this planet, this Earth. and i always have that hesitation before posting about that because i know it's not Easy Listening. So as i weighed talking about this Interview with Sam Baker, i asked self that question. Am i looking too hard at Sorrow?, Or, do i just need to stay, Looking, for as long as it takes, to See and/or Go
Through
it...to what's on the other side,
it's not like there are not all the truly beauty full things here still. They are here, holding steady. Like the PROFUSION of yearling Whiptail lizards, so amazingly brilliantly BLUE, their faces, bellys, tails. There is, that today i brought the Goats back into the Way Back and watched their JOY at RUNNING. and felt their Joy so much.. Inside me. And the Happiness, the soft sweet Happiness that with the distraction of the doe Goats not so near, the buck Goats simply received me in their Pen, received me, among them, saying words, scratching the good places, well...just Being with them.
one of the things i thought of doing is to just post pics. no words. till i am .....Through. Through to the other side.
but then, Toot Toot, my most loved UPS woman with:
The Soil Will Save Us .... Kristin Ohlson .... 2014, Rodale Press
here so fast.
and i opened it, and read it's dedication: For Holland, Sylvie, and all the inheritors: Don't be meek!
and i looked at her face on the back flap....yes. this woman Is. Kristin Ohlson is a writer, it says. "based in Portland Oregon. Her work has appeared in the New York Times, Christian Science Monitor, Salon, Discover and elsewhere. Her article about burning coal mines was collected in Best American Science Writing 2011. She is also the author of Stalking the Divine, which won the American Society of Journalists and Authors' 2004 Best Nonfiction Book award, and the coauthor of the New York Times bestseller Kabul Beauty School."
and i thought, maybe it can go this way. As i read, and i have already begun, i can post here what i am reading. and if it goes well, as in, what she has to say, i can live in side the HOPE. yes, the HOPE, that the soil will save us. That we will be able to allow that to happen. and as i thought that, i thought about how i will say sometimes that Earth, this Planet, has an Intelligence that surpasses our own. Could it be? like, Really? like more than just the words say?
and maybe. maybe that's what's on the Other side, of going through Sorrow? maybe not. am still thinking. and still not knowing. but soon...i Will go back out and lie, face into Earth. because i Want to. i really really Want to.
looking out this Morning. How i usually look Through this, but today i looked At it.
and Into it...seeing how one of the stones that's "from nearby" has crumbled into it's components, exposing a perfect crystal of flourite.
invisible baste, anchoring things. Looking.
and again. Terri Gross Fresh Air NPR interview with Sam Baker May 10th, 2014
