it's different.
i don't know if it will Last, but today, it's very different. No more Vocalizing first thing in the morning, then mid day and then evening. Silent, pretty much. Some calling but just normal Goat calling, not the Intense or Shrill. I watch them, from this distance, the house yard or even out the door. They pretty much are just standing and looking. Standing and looking. If the doe Goats are in the middle pen, they look at them. If they are in the Way Back, they just look in this general direction. I am going out and giving peanuts. I am also deep into thinking about Sensory Gates. I find that there are examples of this Everywhere, one of them being in the conversation with Jan who has very very specific gates she operates out of. When we'd moved the bucks, we stood in the Albatros next to the Doe bedroom where they all were, sheltering from the rain. We stood and looked and talked Goat. One of the things she said was "Your daughter is never going to come get these goats. There are plenty of goats in California." "Pick two of them that you like the best and let the others go". and there was silence. She broke the silence saying "Which do you like the best" and i looked at them, all gathered there, all listening to the conversation, and i said
All of Them. All of Them for different reasons, each one of them.
And she heard me and she understood what she was hearing but she also has very strong Gates. and she said.... "Pick two Let the rest go and don't have opinions about their future".
So i think about this today in the back of my mind as i go about going to work and then coming home to stuff here and i think about it. And i wonder what it would be like to have Strong Gates like that. To be so SURE of stuff, to not WONDER. Most of my Gates i think are made of vague stuff, i can't even in this moment think of an analogy, but just thin vague stuff. Hardly Gates at all. Maybe like of old very weather and time worn string that can break and dangle.
I don't know.
i don't think there's anything visible in this pic but i invisible basted pretty much the whole Left as we look at it. Doesn't change the visual much, but does make a great difference to the FEEL of it.
and after Waiting, it's Time to go back to this one. See what wants to come here.
So, ok. ok.
