to Remind. This blog is to document days. Whatever comes. As is.
Yet, i am hesitant. Because others read. It's not like a personal journal, but a shared journal. And i believe that is toward the good of the whole in These Days. Yet there is hesitation, because i don't want anything MADE of anything. Everything is in question. Everything means Everything and Nothing.
But still.....
I brought in the rock two days ago.
Back in my Other Life, when i was part owner of a brand new book store in Michigan, 1988/89, there was SO MUCH. It was a "new age" book store, sort of. I thought of it as New because finally we all seemed to be looking at Old, at Ancient wisdom. in a new Age. It was exhilarating to say the least. SO MUCH to learn from Old Ways. The Energy was HIGH and MOVING. All of us who had been through the 60's were FULL of wanting to learn, wanting to Know. In its way, it was very very Beautiful. And also in its way, it was not. We had books on so many topics: Feminism, Homeopathy, Ancient Cultures, Native, or First People , Art, Earth Ecology, a room devoted to Children with a rocking chair and a Larger Than Life Bear. Religion, Science, Esoteric things. And we had
stones. crystals. All manner of Things From the Earth. The person who brought us those things was a wonderful man who traveled the Planet, gathering. Sometimes i was the one who was there when he came and i would sit with him and choose. During that time i brought home to mySelf many incredible things. And i had access to ALL the books that taught about them. There was SO MUCH. And over time, that became the problem for me. So Much and moving SO fast and Wanting to Know and Wanting to Know, Too Much, Too Fast and it began feeling really crazy. And that was part of the reason i left that life. And when i did, i closed the door on it all.
Instead, i watched mountains and walked and lived and carried stones and rocks from one place to another but did not ask anything of them. Did not want to imagine anything about them. Just LIVED with them.
Today, there was the need to find the bead tins. Maybe they are gone??? I have given so much away. A LOT of stuff. And it's just Gone. And i don't really remember the details of it's Going. Were they Gone? I looked in the House. No. I looked out in the Albatros. No. ok. That Airstream?
Yup. Some.
the two i wanted. Yes. There they were. And also the Sun Oven....which my granddaughter had asked about and i didn't know. Ok.
these two. the ones i wanted.
and then also, these.
This one is the One i was wanting. Here it was. To me, it's a Lizard. a turquoise lizard.
I went back to google Chrysocolla.
it is the stone of forgiveness, Peace, and the strenthening of emotional bonds. helps in recovering our natural spontenaeity. a teaching stone. it helps older women. One strange property known since antiquity is its property of encouraging people to stay at home. It is the stone of monks, hermits and prisoners.
