so this has been good. These last two posts that i had some trepidation about. But i find when i feel like i am not being Clear about my life, BOTH to myself and to others, it is as if there is something stuck in the Way of things, something hidden, really, and i find that very uncomfortable any more. Put it all Out There. Let the "air things" dance around it, let it all receive the same Sun and Moon that i do. Let it "air out". Let it take its equal place within the Whole. And it's now feeling like that. Enough Said. It's here. documented. so ok. We can just go now.
When i got home today from the Work Awa y, i was met by this. All over in the Way Back, those birds. Not just in the old dead Russian Olive, but Everywhere. They were all over the roof too, the sounds of their feet ticking away up there, going to and fro and back and around. They were all over at the back gate too, lining the fence, around the rim of the Goats water tub, drinking their water and TALKING. So much TALKING. I have never seen this before.
for a moment it seemed like all i do is bring in wood. But then, i let that thought go and brought in more wood. Wood keeps me warm.
this is as far as the basket of clean laundry got. Just inside the door, atop Tay's crate. It probably will stay there till Wednesday. Tay doesn't mind, thinks it's interesting to have things overhead although she rarely uses her crate anymore.
and i FORCED self to apply yet one more coat of primer on the last window. one side of it anyway, and it's drying now. Tomorrow the primer on the Other side and then, the coat of blue. and then it was time to feed myself and the dogs and yes, bring in more wood ...the day being over still so soon and i was thinking that maybe i will NEVER make another cloth again. but then suddenly
i went over to the Wall and re arranged. re pinned. A Flower Spirit in January! A Being! and it felt really really GOOD. January. soon the seed catalogs will arrive. January.
