so, this is a good example for me. What the re re re re re on and on re commitment to meditation does...
It was supposed to Rain last night. But this is what i saw first Light this morning.
And instead of a lot of internal commotion, i simply saw Blue. How Blue it all looked out there. Instead of entertaining all manner of useless concern about the Goats, i simply saw Blue. And i just went Out. Spoke to them, emptied their soggy feed bowls and filled them. Shoveled the steps for Chinche and watched Tay run. Free. It was all Free of any "overlay" of stuff. It simply was what it was. And it was Blue.
i loved looking at those CatHairScraps, still flying like prayer flags and i saw the one on the far left as a horse. a Horse Cloth. someday.
And as a continuation to the post of yesterday, this is what meditation means for me, specifically, Tonglen...it is a release from the self created commotion. It is a Response to what IS, rather than a Reaction. There is an important difference to me.
more just small stitches but important, the Invisible Baste, Jude Hill Spirit Cloth, on the right side in this pic. I wondered if it would be discernable. It is. there is a substance on the right side from the stitches that is not present on the left yet. A very slight implication of dimension.
I've run out of wood. Had called my wood guy, Evan, whose mailbox was full. He did finally call back and said he would go and haul more down, but that he had been focused on some OAK that he'd brought back from Texas (LIZ) when he hauled a load of New Mex wood to them there.
OAK. wow. Oak. well, more wow. But it's $400 a cord. No way. He is looking for a market for it with restaurants that cook with wood. I am kind of a restaurant, i cook a LOT, but ..........and then he called back to say he couldn't go UP to get more for me, it was wet, slippery, etc. So now, i am thinking, now what. And again, without commotion. Just a quiet now what.
ok. so it's all Just Going.
