i planted the Cuban Oregano in the Diamond bed, in a small rock room. Next to the Chocolate Flowers and watered. Then, i planted the Japanese Honeysuckle outside the fence from the Maybe Native Plum stump. all the while sending vibes to Tay to leave them alone. Which she did. (so far)
but went out a short time later and she was tearing through the Place with an asparagus start flailing from her mouth....you remember them in the sink?....and i yelled DROP IT! and she did and i picked it up and walked, she ran, walking, her running and telling her to STOP which she finally did and i pressed the asparagus against her lips and nose and yelled NO! Turned and walked away and replanted its dear self...who knows what it feels, and she slunk under the porch. I left it this way for maybe 15 minutes then felt bad for her. Digging to her is just digging. Which is a joy. So i said No Dig and let it go. We'll see.
All day i did small things and looked
it's not great, but is what it is. I understood how it is really, low, to many people. I am short so it's ok for me, but for not short people, well...it's low. But it's what i have for now.
tweaked so you can see better, on the right panel, a piece of paper that will have Words
i haven't written them yet. Thought of them, really yet, but will.
and all day i thought about Why? i am hoping people will want to
buy
Cloth Pictures i make so i can keep feeding 17 Goats that I never intentionally imagined having till death do us part?
Why, if I am impelled to MAKE things, Why don't i make Useful things? Why don't I learn to weave and weave dish towels, belts, rugs?
Why don't I aspire even to making something like Judy Martin makes? Great Works of Textile Art?...not that i Could, but why don't i even have an urge to TRY?
You could have NO IDEA all the rush of thoughts swirling over themselves today. What on Earth am i Doing????
I need to ask these questions of self before I am there and someone, who is truly interested asks me.
I need to walk backward in my mind to when I first saw Spirit Cloth blog, it was late one night and I was transfixed. By seeing things that I Understood...Seeing a Way that was the "closest ever" to how I perceive the World, experience the World
I remember the first time I watched Jude's Flicker slide show of COMA. How the feeling of COMA has never lessened no matter how many times I've watched.
So today and in the next 3 days i will entertain these thoughts, whether i want to or not, they'll come. And maybe I'll know something more "for sure" than I do now. It's easier NOT to think about it much. But right now, I seem to need to.
the refrigerator holds a reflection of the Old Apricot Tree from the kitchen window. From the Morning Chair, i see this. How Beauty Full it is...watching it there through out the day. If i could, i would make a Cloth of this. But it would make even less sense than the others do.
