is what it feels like to me...what i have been doing for a while...kind of like a broken record, but it's how i Work Stuff. And this is foremost a Journal. so i say OK to Self. Do what you need to do. Say what you need to say until there is some Peace to it all.
So my calendar is changed. There are SUNdays and then Mondays and then OldCowboydays and Wednesdays etc. Tuesdays are no longer just Tuesday and specifically, every Other tuesdays but just OldCowboyDays. and i have Worked it enough so it's Ok and what it is. There will be more change, but for now, seems like some kind of equilibrium.
Knowing that it can be anything, i give it over in its Entirety, OldCowBoyDay. It began this morning with something i don't understand. There was a CROW. I heard it before i went to the door, a CROW low in the Oasis yard and Hot on it a band of maybe 7 or 8 Mockingbirds...chasing it, rushing it. CROW landing here and there and a long time on one of the inside fence posts. Never Before.
and it was over as suddenly as it began.
I saw then Tanagers...many in the Three Leaf Sumac....brilliant colours, hanging like ornaments as they do.
and i thought about how when i first came here, when i brought those first Garden Toads, there was a single Meadowlark. There was no tree yet. No bush. The single Meadowlark sang from the electrical line.
and then the day dissolved into Work Away. Once finally Back Home and pulling the hose to clean out the water bowl in Nogal and Tenzen's yard, passing the Three Leaf Sumac, i saw that there was not ONE. Not ONE SINGLE berry when there had been SO MANY, hundreds, yesterday.
EATEN.
GONE.
a circle of Season's work for that bush. Eaten.
and i did spend some small time with kantha
and just Looking. With no particular Intent.
stuff that was on the Surface of the piles of stuff on the table...shapes....images.....
and this, all taken Apart
i caught the little so recently TRANSPLANTED Chocolate Flower's bloom in the last moment. By tomorrow, it will not be here.
but just to the right, two new blooms are coming. and i look. FEEL how Loving this is. To be Transplanted. Dug up. Carried. Planted. and to Just Go. to Just Go. This very small plant. A plant to Just Going. Maybe This is the most important part of this day
