urge came a few days ago and today was the day. The Magic Diaries cloth. I'd taken it down from the West window of the Room, some time ago...i think last fall? And just hastily folded and put into the Toy Box that holds winter things inside and that the baskets sit on at the Looking Wall. I had some feelings at the time, like knowing it needed to be washed. Knowing that there are many small things that needed to be done before washing. The crows for instance, are barely basted in place. More. I don't know why i felt so short of time, at That time, but i did and it felt very uneasy, just putting the Cloth away, but i did.
Prior to that, it had hung in that West Window as a curtain for probably close to two years. MUCH constant exposure to direct SUN light from the whole South facing windows. A long time.
on the futon couch this morning.
then back over on the Wall.
i sat here and scrolled through Picasa looking for when i was making it....Jude's Magic Diaries....i had no idea what year that was, really, so i just scrolled and scrolled and while scrolling was surprised by what i was seeing...some beauty Full things that i hardly remembered, but they're there, so i know i made them....
this for instance
and i got to look at this again, almost 4 years ago, Granddaughter Alyssia's son, Julian in the dust of Polvadera. And it was good to stare at this, speaks to me about Beginning Again. Beginning "clean", nothing but Interest, Focus, on just the Senses. And i finally found a pic of the Magic Diaries Cloth
the date is May 19, 2012
so i guess that's around the time of working on it?
it has faded. a LOT. What was the central backgound was a kind of slate blue that i made with Colorhue dye. The two outside panels a pale version. I vaguely remember using Colorhue Black and getting this perfect color by accident.
today it is almost a kind of sand lavender, the outside panels just a well, uhhh, variations of a kind of clay color. But there are things here that thrill me. For the most part, very small things. So, I want to stitch what needs it down well enough. I want to wash it in the bathtub and hang it Out in the Wind. and then bring it in and LOOK for a Long Time. I want to add to it some things that i've learned since, mix them in. I want to do what might be called....finishing it. Finishing it to at least this point in time. Will i put it back up on the West Window again or fold it up and put it back in the Toy Box. I don't know. Enough for today.
and i need to say that the Lizard Cloth at the center top is Jude's work...she had sent it and i needed it there, at the Center Top. Where she remains in me, the Center Top.
Finished the dark stitches of the Protector. Which brought great relief. Yesterday was a very difficult day and i floundered. Today, this Cloth held me.
