Old Cowboy had an event....panic attack and an episode of Air Hunger. so
i went.
Of course it might change, but in this moment of time, he is not at all Present. His mind is completely preoccupied with the ranch in Colorado, events of years gone by. ReRuns. He is not oriented to Person or Place. at all. Ok.
When my present responsibilities are complete, or
When this particular Karmic Obligation has been met, when it has Ripened, When the fruit of it falls from the Vine, back into the Vastness,
I would like to draw Lizards. I would like to draw and draw and draw lizards until the point when i touch the pencil/pen to the paper/cloth a Lizard FLOWS . Without thought, without design, just FLOWS.
And not just "lizards", but the Whiptail Lizards that live here. Whiptails. Whiptails.
I was on my way Out this morning and an oh so small, just New One scattered from my foot step and i stopped and she stopped and how they DO, she looked up...Eye Contact.....
but i had to go.
So when this responsibility has been fulfilled, I would like to NOT need to Go. But be able to squat, to share that moment of connection fully...and wait for her to break it....
