there is back and forth. back and forth. and inbetween the back and forth, the gloves dry some while resting on the Walnut Pot.
last night it was 5 degrees, or -15 celsius. so the fear was this morning....before i went Out for the first time, .....what would i find?.....did they make it? Sun shown on the Way Back tree branches , bush branches like strings of fine crystal, sparkling. I put off going Out. But then do. There They all are, waiting. Silently, just waiting for me. and spring to Life with the dropping of the feed. Even old Gideon, he is so Glad and comes quickly to the gate. So we did make it. I know more now. More about what can be endured. I wonder how they experience this, everything completely Different than ever before, being confined to such small space of shoveled paths? They don't give a clue. They just wait for what's next.
All this day spent trying to make it better, or, trying to keep it ok. More shoveling for Them, shoveling the car off and part way out when the across the road rancher comes with his big equipment, clearing the road and then circling around and coming back and clearing behind the car with nothing more than a wave and a smile. I drove the car around the "block"...stuff was ok. Back to Goat paths. Back to hauling buckets of hot water that i fill in the bath tub and lug out ...having added snow to the tubs first, the hose to that part of this world is buried and frozen. I tried, but i couldn't get it out. So, many buckets of hot water added to snow = drinking water. Ok. Carrying Chinche out mid morning and setting her on a shoveled path, i find her a few minutes later awkwardly in a snow drift. Carry back. Clear snow from the tarp over the wood pile, half ass endeavor with a sauce pan, but in out in out in out i get enough wood in for the night and tomorrow morning.
I watch my Self, all this, and think WHAT AM I DOING????? is this CRAZY? but then i think, well,
what would i RATHER be doing? and i am ok again, just doing. Just Going. Ok. We need to make it through this week and then the "weather" will return to more "normal". The snow for the most part will have melted. And we now know that we can, CAN, do this much. Ok.
In that jelly jar that's on the wooden box that is the "table" for the Morning Chair, i keep torn scraps of printed pics that didn't come out right...usually from needing to change the ink cartridge. They are interesting, just pieces torn about 3x2" or 2x2. I use them for grocery lists and just writing very small thoughts on. I noticed one yesterday
this one...it's been there for a long time, don't know what it came from, but this one, This Morning appeared as IT. Appeared as how January really IS. January is NOT vertical, but rather horizontal, with the before and the after attached. So three pieces of cloth...attached horizontally. Maybe tomorrow, or the next day, or....the cloths will appear? In the meantime, there's enough to do.
