today is my daughter's birthday. 4o something years ago, i was in labor. She was face up. Would not turn. Took 21 hours. Sometimes slow, sometimes the total opposite. They wanted to turn her with forceps. I refused. I was Into It....i LOVED it....i was deleriously happy with it and finally for unknown reasons, She turned and slid out. And this has been Our Way over all these years. She does things for ways known only to her. She does things in her own time. I am so Glad to have received her.
Michelle sent me a link about a movie, 1 hour and some minutes about dying. It's called Mortal. she'll post the link. but it's blog.mortalfilm.com. It can be viewed for free through the 25th. So 3 more days. It's Extraordinary. Much of it is things we might be very familiar with but it is put together in a way that takes in all the ways of looking at dying. There are two parts of it that for me were priceless...the young woman with ALS and the scenes of the disembodied Energy walking the Earth. I watched it first thing this morning and then had to go to the bank to send money to Alyssia. She is in Hawaii and she and her woman Kimberly had somehow not read the fine print and miscalculated their expenses. So...eating peanut butter and jelly for a few days already, so i sat there, waiting to talk to one of the uhhh, what would they be called, the two women who deal with Issues, Anna and Neata, waiting and watching people come and go and seeing them as beings who ALL entertain thoughts about death. It's unavoidable, entertaining thoughts about death even if for only a moment at a time, but i saw all of us in the same boat, knowing. But going. and it was very Beauty Full, how this is. Just a big US. Knowing but going.
This evening, just before this, i needed to change the water in the Buck tubs. and for whatever reason, Nogal was completely into whole body touch. Usually he will be ok with ear scratching, chin, but tonight....his whole self. He stood so still and i went down his spine, crown to tail. Sides. Underbelly. Legs. Whole self. ??????????? Never since he was just a newborn. TenZen watched and thought about it. Goats are mysterious beings.
so here they come. Following Mo's suggestion, the second from the right is done with some very wonderFULL thread that Jan had recently sent. It worked except for it's very hard to do a split back stitch...well, really, you can't. but i like it, too. The others with a single strand of the 6 floss and well, they will take some imagination but that's really ok i think.
