to get to where i got to in the last post, i realized today, what i was doing, without realizing it, was that technique of Eugene T. Gendlin's....Focusing. A book by the same name, from 1978. Asking, being with what comes until the Felt Sense.
There is a peacefulness now, and also some kind of heightened sensitivity to Everything. I am still spending a lot of time just being OutSide, like it was when they were here. Sometimes sitting but more often squatting, gazing. and to admit, sometimes Willing that snake to return. I want the snake to return.
OutSide, at night, long.
the cucumbers are finally coming in. I am so grateful.
We made things with Sculpey when they were here. I made Snowbunny. I think she might have cancer. I'll send this to Julian on his birthday in October. I make the marks, a little at a time, going out to look at her....say, right cheek....and coming in to make the marks. or her ears
and today, finally, Back to Cloth. How this feels. Back to Cloth. yes.
