so the pause continues, but is gaining substance in something more than a pause. I just was OutSide a lot. Doing nothing in particular other than Being there. Well, thinking about the Next garden to come and thinking about what i did and didn't plant this year and wondering about that. I am keeping a list of synchronistic things. Today, that Next garden thinking and daughter sends a link to a sustainable organic seed company just down the road from her....Sustainable Seed Co., Chico California. I looked and how GREAT...they have seed for Tatume squash which i was only able to get once and was beyond the best summer squash, but could not find again. They have seed.
and then Julie of Threading the Dog, juliestockler.blogspot.com posted and there was this from a lecture of Tara Brach speaking to the discomfort of not knowing in these times. "...simply pause and deepen our awareness. There will be a time when it is appropriate to act." synchronistic to the Pause here.
the Collage Table where down the road Sydney and 13 yo daughter Talulah and i sat ripping and cutting and gluing down. and i realized that Pause for me means letting go of the Trajectory that i am used to and letting Something come IN of it's own accord. It felt really GOOD.