i said a couple days ago that this is Emrie's Cloth About Magic and it is. But i realize it is not FOR Emrie, but for All of us that will gather on that Hill in California. It's a Cloth for the human endeavor there, what will occur as it goes; getting there and then being there. It's a Cloth for the Hill itself that will receive us and what we bring to It. Being wide open to Magic will be the key. All the past(s) will be brought and Planted. Magic will grow us. Will grow the Life.
Only so many days now.
Throughout the days and nights i find self ~ off and on~ feeling almost overwhelmed by the not knowing and it is a waste of energy. Needing to work with that and work hard at that, i have found self going way back to when i was in Ann Arbor...same feeling but different circumstance. I studied meditation with a woman who was psychic, Cathy Florida. That's a long story but i came away with the most fundamental, Sanskrit, Soham. So.. the in breath, ham... the exhale. Soham. I am or I am that. It is said when a child comes into the universe, he/she cries by making the sound "Koham" to which the Universe replies back....Soham. The universe tells her "you are the same as I am".
This is what i am doing. Stopping, whenever that wasted energy begins and repeating this until i quiet then continuing the just going. It's Good. And last night i actually got up and Sat for some time...it was warm enough in the house for this, then fell into a sound sleep again, waking this morning to stand in front of this Cloth. Looking. Then walking over to the small scraps baskets. These arose.
were quickly placed and stitched without "thought", without hesitation. and this is how it will continue as this time goes along. First thing in the morning. without thought, without hesitation. Whatever arises. And then no "interpretation". Just what is. This Cloth will tell its own story.
