woke to BrainPickings, Maria Popova. There, All These Wonders....the Moth. Read. feeling the pulse backward to where someone just had posted the cover of this book, stories, and how our lives are stories. and was sure it must have been Deb G so left her a question on her blog and then thought, no, maybe it was Dee and went to look there but couldn't find it and by then, Deb G had replied that it was Hazel....beep beep beep beep, the heartbeat ticked along the Red Thread and i googled the Moth...HOW DID I NOT KNOW OF THIS?????????? and saw that these are on Utube and watched a few, and read i guess on the Moth page how these stories are about Risk and Courage and the Unknown and i was so Clear that this is why i work so much now with Fear....and how it's not some kind of Weakness that i need to OVERCOME, but a Real thing that is fair enough in the circumstances of Risk and Courage and the Unknown and i said Aloud, I AM AFRAID. and suddenly i needed to find the Magic Diaries Cloth...which toy box was it in? and i found it
hung it.
Stared.
when did i add this?....the place of Entry?....not that long ago...maybe a couple months? give or take?
at that same time, i gave her arms. Just with pencil, but arms nonetheless. Stuff to DO. Need arms.
staring....that thing of Unknown was present. This side i Know. I wondered if i might just add to it over on the Right Side?????? But, what about the Other Side?
this is it. Ok. the Other Side.
and i thought about how when i was searching for the Moth, i went to Deb G. How she has this thing for FieldNotes that has always held me even before knowing her, but so strong from knowing her
Field Notes
wikipedia
"qualitative notes recorded by scientists or researchers in the course of field research, during or after their observation of a specific phenomenon they are studying. The notes are intended to be read as evidence that gives meaning and aids in the understanding of the phenomena."
and i got out that drawing book that i'd started when everyone, almost everyone, was here last year and that i'd thought about doing something with, but didn't and i got my Elmers glue and pasted stuff in and wrote some things
what's the difference between journaling and Field Notes?
Field Notes are OBJECTIVE descriptions of what one sees. Here, field notes would, in this moment be about FEAR in a 71 year old woman, sending off a herd of Goats whom she has become Part Of. Who have come to see her also as part of Them. Ethnology.
ON THE HILL.
they have accomplished almost all the Goat World. There are 4ft actual and real metal gates between 4x4 cemented in wooden posts. They made a corridor along side the outer fencing that can accomplish something similar to what i learned from the Vet here last week. They have, in place, what will be needed as a overhead shelter for the feeding. for the storage of feed. Alyssia took her dog Zoey who took risk and found courage and ran the perimeter into her unknown. They talked to the adjacent neighbor whose dogs had ravaged the kids easter baskets and eaten chocolate bunnies and earphones both....he had heard them yelling at his dogs to GO AWAY, and he agreed for them to use his present Tposts for new fencing which will limit his dogs, a necessity in our thinking for the Goats and future chickens that the kids want. Maybe not...dogs run loose there???? Learning. What else? other than it all goes so slow???? But there is phone reception always now and so most likely, Internet....so i can keep TELLING you once i get there.....
