work away and home to this afternoon's atmospheric events of electrical storms, 3, WIND from alternating directions and hail. So ok.
i actually wished i had vodka, kaluah, and cream. crushed ice. it's the only thing that appealed.
but then....
that jar, no lid, buttons and sand from a winter and spring, sitting on the Weather Watching Windowsill...ok...i washed them. Which led to more buttons, beads, also under cover of dust, dog hair and spider webs
these are all from i guess, almost 30 years ago.
What? do i think about that? There were maybe twice this much but over time, the kids used many that i wasn't attached to.
ADDENDUM
so this is about human love...how we can stay, stay within kinds of adversity and then feel such relief when it stops
just moments ago. Suddenly. and i mean Suddenly. Suddenly, it all STOPPED. It is totally still Out There. SUN is at the exact RIM. and there is the voice of the Boat tail Grackle...a single sound of a single bird. No more than this. Singular things. And this is how you keep loving it, even tho half of it is HARD. Suddenly, that Other Half appears and in comparison, it is so sweet....like nectar from a tiny clover.
