Ok. ok then. a flag. ok.
i went to work and came home to read on Facebook, i clicked in quick, on facebook
"according to the new map, the fire claimed our little piece of paradise last night. we cannot get there to see the damage. so we don't know the extent. but i am not optimistic." Jenny's Facebook.
then...there was a phone message from Alyssia.
it's good. it's just as it was. there is nothing. no smoke, no fire. it's just as it was and is.
I call Alyssia. She went there. she muscled her way through the road closed zone...her, 8 + months pregnant and they let her go through and what she found was that
everything was just as it always was. Nothing changed. For as far as she could see, no smoke even. She gathered all the gas cans all the keroscene cans and took them in her vehicle...away from her retaining wall that they had worked so hard to create. It was all she could think to do.
so...in this moment here, 6 something oclock, my time, 5 something oclock their time, there is Reprieve. The Dragon went elsewhere.
the fire is 35% contained. Dependent on so much.
later a long conversation with Jenny. My daughter. who has never been Easy. and i suppose i too, have never been easy for her. We are who we are. so the conversation...meandering and weaving and we try to find ourselves in it all and it weaves and i say to her that i have believed so many things and i have loved so many things and i know that she had found so many of those things sticking in her craw over her young adult times, but we aren't there any more. We are HERE. Now. and it is FUNNY and my eyebrows fly up because at the end of this long and so heart felt conversation she says...." i just think its Karma". "i think it's just Karma."
oh and eeeee.
things can change, like the WIND, but for now, we have this space of SAFE. to learn from.
