sometime last Tuesday, late in the day, there was no Internet. Out of the Blue. Late. So i just went to sleep, assuming it would be as usual in the morning. No. When i called tech support at Century Link, they assured me that they were aware of the glitch and would have it repaired better than ever in no time. Not. and on into Thursday. By then, i'd quit calling...the nice male voice on the Answer saying they were doing everything to correct the inconvenience. Friday, same. This is Century Link...a HUGE company, raking in the dough for years. I have both landline phone service and internet through them. I kept thinking they could fly in technicians from where ever that knew how to fix this....but it felt like blah blah blah as it played and replayed in my mind. After an initial conversation with an after hours Tech when i said i wondered if she realized how dumb her excuses were, then apologized to specifically Her, but asked her to "pass it on"...she said..."it's not just you". and i thought yes...it's not just me. And i wondered if the hurricane had in fact Puerto Rico where there is extended family. No. It's not just me. She was right. and right about then Alyssia called and said there was NO electricity for Puerto Rico. Her son's Grandfather and many uncles, aunts, cousins live there. He doesn't know them, just in photographs that the New Jersey arm of the very large family have shown him. His father's father. His Gramma's sisters and brothers. Photographs. Family for them runs strong and deep. He's been shown photographs to help him understand his Place among them.
Context.
So Wednesday i jonesed. a little into Thursday. then pulled it together some and finished the Gaia II Cloth
this eased things. She is in the shop. don't forget that you have to go all the way to the bottom to the two little ..>> and click
and because of the disconnect, i'd forgotten all about having ordered boxes from Amazon till there was the familiar roar of the truck and the toot toot and my beloved UPS Terri hauled out the two big boxes of boxes.
i ordered boxes. I was really unsure about this, but i did it. The alternative was to cruise the dumpsters behind businesses in town, to look on the local buy sell and trade page. But i was so uneasy about that. EVERYWHERE in town, there are cockroaches. They are just regular citizens among us here in this climate, like Florida, etc. Even the most impeccable homes have them. Out here in the outskirts, i have been diligent to not bring any home. close to paranoid. and have managed for 20 some years. To change that now, worse yet, to travel with some to California...eeeee.....
so i ordered boxes. And here was UPS Terri toot tooting with perfect timing....
and with only minimal confusion i put one together and LOOK!...cookie sheets and part of the pyrex collection FITS!!!!!
the gallon Glass Jars.....FIT with room to spare for using linens to keep them safe...pillow cases, towels, etc.
this stuff
and then i looked at the flat containers i'd packed the books in. Which at first seemed to be such a great idea but when i had to move one so i could find a book i needed, i realized how unwieldy they are....Heavy and well...not such a great idea. They will be really good for storage when i Get There...in whatever shed...but for moving them around, Not.
EEEeeeeeee...perfect!
one of the flat plastic boxes fills one of these about 2/3 full. and it's heavy enough to be heavy, but to move.
and i can fill the rest of the space with Beauty things, with Love things. They will be safe.
things that have been accumulating on the Altar shelf. I can wrap them in newspaper and set them on the books.
and there was such good relief with all this. It triggered the memory of leaving my home in Ann Arbor so long ago, a whole two story house and basement and how it was so overwhelming that at a point, i just turned my back and left it all behind. This is my Last Move. A lot i'll leave behind. Travis and Everett like stuff. and what they can't use, they will take to the Flea Market and sell to people who Can use whatever it is. But, this is my final accumulation. A lot of it, i had thought to Leave. But Alyssia is not for that...saying Bring it. Just Bring it. ok. ok then.
and this, with these boxes, feels manageable and ok. There's room for the bowls, the plates. The stainless steel pots for Goat Cheese. Even, the computer fits Exactly in one. no wiggle room. Exact. Stuff. Sigh.
and the other night, actually on the night of Peace Day, i woke at the appointed hour of 2 something AM and was awash with feeling and it came to me to visualize all the people there in North Korea...all the people who are just like me, living plain lives with plain concerns, just like me and i was "instructed" to send them LOVe....to visualize them, in their homes and in their countryside and to send them love and great wishes for Well Being that we can somehow find a Way to each other. And tomorrow i'll google North Korea Country side and get a good pic of that for this mission.
Some people are relieved to have no Internet for a while. Not me. I miss it. I miss You All, like Sisters. All my mundane stuff, i miss you like Sisters.
Thank you for being here. Big Love.....
