y friend up in Magdalena emailed a few days ago....Are you still here? There was an exchange back and forth and after a few less than comfortable exchanges, it was decided that we would meet at a third mutual friend's home in town and i'd bring Pizza. We did.
we went back in time, trying to figure out when we first became friends etc. And as i figured it would, the one friend got around to addressing the issue of how i had failed as a friend. This is nothing new.
so...we wandered through it all again. I don't know whether we came to any conclusion, but we wandered through it. 4 hours. i think we all were honest. We all displayed our "filters". I will be 72 this birthday. One will be 80. The third, most gentle of us is 80 something. Old Women. Eating Pizza, drinking red wine and being honest, each in our own way. It is what it was.
I had talked to Tina earlier...Our Tina, who appears here in the comments, our Tina, talked to her earlier on the telephone. About connection. About the PULSE. about the concept of "friend".
so this eve, i think about how i can sit in the physical presence of someone that i have known for many years. How i can tap away here to HeartEnergiesOutThere and find deep sisterhood. No need to go any further. What is is. And so.
talking about Tazmeena and place....she puts her self here in this large basket this morning, and i had to do a double take...she looked so old and thin...like me...she looked so thin faced...in the basket and is she telling me something? I looked at her tonight and she is her ordinary self, not this morning self, but maybe she can have the basket?
and a PREVIEW
tomorrow. just this, for now. Too many feelings, too much. Needs it's own Space. But Here. Humming their own Vibration. eeeeeeee
