Alyssia drops Julian off at his school here in Orovile in the morning. It's 25 min from their present home in Chico. She loads up Emrie in the car seat. Him. His back pack with bus pass which is required. He gets dropped off down at the end of CareFree Way and Old Olive Highway at about 3:10 give or take. Walks up, eats something, does homework sometimes, sometimes does one of his online things and then, ordinarily, it's Goat time, Chicken time. Alyssia and Emrie and i go out. Sometimes i don't go. They feed the buck Goats, fighting off the Doe Goats who are alfafa junkies. They put feed for Talkie, check her water, retrieve her egg. All that goes slow. You need to look at everyone, see how they're doing, pet who wants it, have a conversation with Talkie, and with Emrie, it's really slow because her walking to and fro takes time. and she doesn't want help. Wants to do it herSelf. Takes a while. Today, Talkie left a speckled egg. A first. ?????? Maybe from that lizard? So the wondering took time too.
Today i finished planting one of the domestic Lilacs that Jenny had bought. Late. the planting. Was pot bound and had lost all it's leaves. Digging it's hole took days. Dig some. Add water. Dig some more. more water. on, and use the pick for the rocks. As i planted it, i saw that at every possible juncture, there are new leaf buds, vibrant green. i'd kept asking...where do you want to put these? and there was no answer, because no one knew. So i picked a place. Up behind Alyssia's Campsite A, in a small sunny space where i imagine Emrie and I having a picnic.
i tried, last night. It was overcast. MOON was there, but few stars and not so much LIGHT. I went out and walked up to that ridge where it goes over, into that part of the forest, but it was shadowed. I sat with Tay and then came back. It does not belong to anyone but itsSelf, that Place, and last night it did not open itsSelf. Ok, then. ok.
i watch the Cloth on the wall. Off and on, all day, every day. What does it want? for the Story? How can i give that?
