i "feel like crying" sometimes but i never cry. I just don't . There is the feeling , rising up FULL, my chest is full, my eyes and nose kind of tingle, don't know how to describe it, but it is there, but then, there isn't tears. I don't know why. It's how i am. i've always been that way.
but i am full. of crying. A crying of a Tenderness, a love, a sadness, a wish for Hope.....stuff like that. Stuff like that.
i don't even know if you can see her in this pic. But, it's a Journal, and i will be able to remember. If she gets a chance, like the door is left open for a moment, she goes out. She's care FUL L on the metal steps, there's 3 of them and then she just takes off. Setting out. In this pic, her onsey is unsnapped and she reminds me of a Lightning Bug She took off to where her brother was giving Water to the Goats. She s barefoot and a one year old steady on her legs, but she goes FAST. She fell once but got up fast and kept going. A one year old girl child.
the guy who is sending bombs...his face, plain....saying in a deposition some years back that he was owner of a cleaning business and a chipanddale dancer among other things, and we need to read this stuff before we vote, wondering how it works in to the All of it and then the people, moving toward the border. I would like to just sit and cry for a while. Cleansing Tears. Cry. Cleansing Tears. but i don't. i can't. and so i will lay me down tonight and sleep, dream, wake. Go again.
