this is the experimenting with the Inktense pencils of a month ago. I had taken off the cloth fragments and just the drawing has been here, next to me on the Everything Table. I realize how i don't do a lot of experimenting, but rather keep repeating what i know i like. This comes into question.
one of those 2am times last night and i picked it up, held it up and the little light from the table battery CHANGED EVERYTHING in a split second.
i'd been thinking i wanted it in the Collage Book that i begin with Acey next week. As i held it and looked, i thought how if i glued it down, i would never be able to see it this way again....backlit, glowing. This morning i thought it's good. I will remember that it's two Things with one to be unseeable, but remembered. And, this tells me to Experiment MORE. There is always More.
In an email from Jan Up North California from here, she wrote:
"I am trying to live a new way. to create a path to and into the new."
not many words, but such a subtle nuance. a New Way. I sat and let them rest in my mind/heart. What is the Difference that struck me so? To understand that. Not to live a different way in this confusion. IE to rearrange things to make it hopefully more, uhhhh, livable. But rather to envision a NEW way to live, create a path to it and Enter. And this remains still in keeping with that thing of SteadFast. To be Steadfast in my love of Earth and to find whatever it takes.
