Alyssia and Emrie came to bring the batteries and ice. To go through the Imperfect Food list. I went out to meet them at the car. Helped unload. Emrie made a B line for the door and i looked to Alyssia...???? yes or no....and she looked off and nodded. So it was like it always was/is. We spent a lot of time with the baby Goats, Emrie giving love and more love and holding and kissing. We moved in one of the table benches for them to climb on, jump on because this morning they were using Caroline for that. It's a long, high enough bench...i'll take a pic tomorrow...to satisfy their DESIRE. for now. We sat at the table IN here and went through the seeds. Emrie played with her loved things while we did that.
we don't know.
They are taking all the Plaquenil. The one single drug that she uses for the Lupus. The one single drug she uses for anything. it slows the progression. She cannot get a refill.
when she was leaving, she said out the window....do you want some masks? I stood there.... just looking and thinking....and i don't know. Should I? I said i don't know....what is she doing?, Not the masks yet, but she doesn't know either. We don't know. I said....i'm waiting for something to signal TIME.....she nodded. And so we go.
i stitched Her a dress...or, an underdress. a slip. Slips. no one wears slips anymore. But an underdress that i can baste thing to. impermanent things. Just for looking, for sensing. Today, one of the little prayers.
