still, no Cloth making.
so...some voice says: you are no longer legitimate. you take up space. Time to go.
?
I am keeping things Alive. Keeping things i have Caused, alive. Garden. s Gardens. I have planted the Malabar seeds in both A and B. Almost as soon as i finish giving water, the soil on the surface is dry to touch. It Hovers around 100 degrees. there are no clouds. Full Sun. I walk the paths back and forth and am amazed at the GREEN of the trees, so Green. the tree frogs that appear in the spaces of the wood of the Wall Garden. This
Mullien
unfazed, and even, continuing.
I am deeply engaged in Some Thing. I can't "name" it, can't exactly say, but i am. deeply. I remain in The Book with the People there. I remain in the Call that arises from this....What will you ....DO?, grace? Way back, you felt this and then way back, you somehow .........forgot? I think of words...apathy?, indifference? but they don't hold themeaning...it's more like having fallen into a Spell. Is that it? No. that's not it. I assumed, maybe, that people in power who knew more than i do would do the work needing to be done. ? and went about my own business of becoming. How long has it been? since the 60's? And how many of us have gone along, seeing to our own business. How has this seeing to our own business formed a kind of Resist that pressed together to avoid so much that was needed for the Good of the Whole. for Every Body Else. and for Every Body Else, truly means for us. for US. They say...take 3 or 10 years to know your Whiteness. Then, come to the table. Ok. This is about how much time i figure i might have with luck. OK. I want to come to that table. I want to leave something GOOD for the children.
Emrie...Julian.....10 years in the Future...are these words still here? Are you reading them? I am talking to you...., this is me, your Old Nana....can you remember?
