4 things for a Story
Was FULL of anticipation, woke at 3 something got up and made tea. Spent time with this Cloth. Read things, thought things, cleared and cleaned the table. Connected laptop and phone to chargers. Folded up the bed. Fed Tay. Just sat a while. Thinking. Time goes quickly and went out to feed Goats and Puppie, Talkie her meal worms. Filled water bowls. Took bag of trash to the back of the truck. Ate. Washed dishes. and ok. Ready. Brought the laptop to the table and clicked the Hulu icon that Alyssia had placed there. Movies. and yup...Nomadland. i watched, totally engrossed. and then, so soon, it was over. and i sat staring at nothing for a long time. It was different than what i had imagined. There was great sadness that i hadn't anticipated. But there was also such Great quiet soft fierceness. Our circumstances were very different but what i could totally and completely identify with was her moment of
leaving.
and then...not being able to "go back".
i want to think about all this more, it is a truly Beauty Full film of a life. i can remember my life like a film ....that continues into today, really. That's something to think about. that continues into today.
and to answer a question. if circumstances were different. If there was no Jenny, no Alyssia, Julian and Emrie. no Goats or chicken or cat. No Hill. Could i, Would i load up the minimum, signal Tay ....IN.....and leave. Go join the Nomads?
i would. i could still. and i would. There is something extremely BeautyFull about living that GESTURE.
