windthread

my World

 

quiet      simple     just what it is    changing     forward    alive    only as is     maybe yes, maybe no    either   Breathing

 

remembering

both

Lassen Volcanic National Park

the Milky Way  high and so beyond the Dixie Fire  2021

peaceFull

fence side of B Garden at Sun set

the same old. o. yes. here to visit again.

so even before i knew,  i knew.     and i knew i knew because on Thursday,  of course.   On Being is with Sharon Salzberg...the title of the episode....The Healing is in the Return.

For maybe 40 years,  my life has grown out from a ground of Buddhist Practice.   Learning as much as i can,  as best i can without formal connection.   That's actually one of the hopes i'd had about coming to California...that making that connection would be possible.   And this drawing is so clear....but i didn't  see that until i listened to Salzberg talking about all the same old same old.    the 5 Hindrances,  mind states:   Grasping,  attachment, clinging.      Aversion,  anger and fear.     Torpor, sleepiness a kind of numbness.    Restlessness,  worry        Doubt,  lack of trust.       She has a way of speaking so clearly.  I heard her.  

We simply return.   Begin again.

 

 

Emrie's dragon Tree.    it was actually two trunks a distance away that broke at the base and fell...so slowly there was no sound and as they fell they leaned and broke off maybe 30 ft of the tree that Emrie sees as her dragon.   We will try to trim the dragon's mouth,  try to find a way to seal it.  Watch closely over a Winter's Rain.   if it is taking in water we will have to blunt cut it or the tree its Self will succumb to underground termites and die as those two that fell did.   She hasn't seen this yet.

i do this blog because i like to.   It's like a grounding at the end of any day....taking a look at what i saw and felt.   For my Self,  for those i love who i understand,  read here.   A sharing....like someone might do with their loved one in the late evening.       It's a journal in photographs of this Hill and all who live here.        it's also an ongoing letter to Emrie now.   For when i'm no longer here.

so yes.   it began as a journal of ClothMaking...back when i was new and so ecstatic to be new.  i am no longer new....the cloth making has taken a different place over time.  No less loved, and   There is some sadness about this.       So...i will sit now,  a little while in that space called Here.   Unpack the baggage....look at the contents.   Let go of some,  rearrange.  Fold it up and set out again for the present Iteration.   I like that word a lot.    Iteration.

Wikipedia :   Iteration is the repetition of a process in order to generate an outcome.  The sequence will approach some end point or end value. Each repetition of the process is a single iteration,  and the outcome of each iteration is then the starting point of the next iteration.                              The thing is....do not be attached to outcome.    Just Go.

 

 

well then

what to say?

i woke,  made tea,  sat down and looked out the Morning Window.   Lo and Behold.  Same View as yesterday,  but                              different.

I don't know the correct terminology for these Oaks.   There are multiple trunks of the same Tree.   Here,  two of one Tree broke at the earth,   leaning just enough to bring down the neighboring trunk...Emrie's dragon Tree.  Which looks even more like a dragon now.    These three might be 60ft  tall?...that's a guess...am not good at measuring.  Tomorrow Jenny will know.  

there is part 2 for this post.   Tomorrow.   or Sunday.   Tomorrow,  i hope.  a lot of work to do to clear a path for Toyota truck.

 

just this for now. Tomorrow, again.

repetition

i am repeating.   I can't help it.    Things are requiring that of me....requiring that until i can move.   out of the repetition.    The urge to just stop blogging was Strong today.   Do i want to?    

i am repeating.    repeating is not  "blog worthy"  but i also have ZERO motivation to  "come up with content".    

it's where i am.

i drew this earlier.....that path that repeats and returns.   the figure hauls her baggage.     Acey said this about how blogging can feel.... like

"just driving around and around the main island of Hawaii"    i laughed,  reading that....

 

science and spirit or Science and Spirit

it's time.   Both.   consciously.      aware.    ok.

i don't remember making this much so far....?????      Found today when looking for something else entirely.   Was just

There

Time to continue with this,  with awareness,  with conscious ness.    Life is short.

a different kind of Entitlement

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the potatoes give the answer.     and  the answer is about so much more than  the potatoes.    

I LOVE.   BeYond  Love   how this Cloth....is an absolutely Clear       illustration    of  what it all  is.