the weather "app" on my phone. It tells Every Thing. But what it tells most is an hour by hour forecast. I can look. The day is forecasted 100% chance of RAIN but this Weather tells me that there are windows in this. What the windows mean to me is that this is when i will be able to FEED the Goats. When the Goats will be able to eat their feed. and today, when i had enough time to go fill the propane tanks down at LakeSide, be back and still enough time for the evening Feed. This is just so FINE. I don't know how to say how really GREAT this is. You wouldn't know. Unless you needed to do it. But it's Huge.
and then...there's the Funeral arrangements. T. her body. Her body is still at the hospital morgue. T. still there. There was all the negotiation with a Funeral Home, with T's mother. This much money for this much "service". Jeff not doing well with it. and in the last month or so, i'd thought about a credit card i have. For months there has been no balance. i'd paid it off. the repairs to the Honda car in hopes of becoming California compliant. But recently, i thought...eeee, what if you never use your credit card? and today those two met. Just use the card. Which i was "given" totally by accident because i ordered stuff from Garden's Alive and they had an offer Pre Approved and i got it, even when my own bank could not give me credit based on my income. It's been over 10 years. So today...for T. For Jeff. For Sanity.
and the best for last....as i was leaving, CareFree Way, onto Old Olive, i saw
i saw
on my right the image above....These BUSHES or SHRUbS neither word is enough for what they ARE, these Plant Beings.
Never in these 4 years have i seen this...they are Glorious. Fiercely Alive and Vibrant and.....BLOSSOMING! BLOSSOMiNG! Zillions of blossoms.....??????????? the Rain, having cleaned the leaves that look to be like Holly??????????? There is a thick clan of them, just near the road where CareFree meets Old Olive. Had this happened before? I don't know. But i do know that i witnessed it today and i mark it. As a miracle of this Earth. How so dry and dust covered for months can, with just Some Rain, BLOOM and i am also grateful that maybe i finally have become able to release Self from the confines of mind...and really See.....really See.
