windthread

12~31~2021 Eve

we'll see how this post goes.   Internet in and out.   But here we are.   Cloth and me with the Our Lady of Guadalupe candle brought from New Mex those years ago,   incense.   and the most important,   the 2022 Butterfly Calendar.    I'd thought i missed the "window",  but there on the almost totally bare shelves of the seasonal isle at the Dollar Store...oh,  there.   There it was.  There were Puppies  and Kittens and my heart stood still...but then.........there it was.  As if Waiting.    The Dollar Store are the best.   Perfect for writing the year on.  i love them and they are $1.   and i have done this for more years than i know...way over 15,   each New Year's   Eve,   sitting with the pages of the year gone by.   Slowly going through,  thinking,   and noting on the new one things that need to be referenced in the coming year.  Birthdays.    Saying Good Bye Days now.  People are dying during  last couple years.  Everything is recorded on the Calendar.  Jenny and Alyssia will say....Go Look on the Calendar....for when we..... dewormed them or trimmed hooves,   when we began a different feed.   There are many milestones for Emrie.   for the Gardens,  this Hill.   I love the  going back.  slowly and bringing forward all that might apply in 2022.   and it's particularly interesting this time because who knows?,  what might apply?   Everything is so ify.   

factoring in

all this restlessness.   all this   un Ease.   All this What To Do.    I thought today....important to factor in the Facts of these days that are WET.   Nothing but Wet.   My world has been reduced to the small square feet of this little tin thing.   No     OUT SIDE.

and In here....the moisture is,   uhhhh,   there isn't a good word for it.   My salt shaker couldn't shake....the little holes were clogged with moist salt.   I found the large container in the cupboard....wouldn't shake either,  all stuck together.   I asked Alyssia to bring me some salt and i put it in this little jar,   taking out a finger full at a time and now....here we have it.  Somehow the moisture got in there too.  So....  factor this in.   Breathe.   Go Slow.   it just is how it is.

a perfect example

this was the first of the Invocation Cloths.    i wanted to find out how it might go if i just used any scraps to create a small Cloth,   How it was,   way back in the beginning of my experience of Spirit Cloth,  understanding that AnyThing was good.    I picked small pieces,  giving no thought to color or design,  just being really free with it all.  It ended up being things that i would have never placed side by side,  together,   it ended up being scraps that were not really appealing to me,  scraps i might never CHOOSE to use.   

  IT ENDED UP being this.

to me,   its the Magician Cloth.   The magician being a figure that appears now and then in all differing form and here,  so Clear to me.    I hold it today.   it is so LIGHT,   almost nothing in weight,   barely there.   I could look at it for hours,  how the incongruent scraps somehow create some kind of odd alchemy....and that combined with its weightlessness.........

i love cloth.    that's it.  that's all.   Love.   

 

things are happening here.   Verizon that is my phone and internet service is experiencing something.   Most of the day there was no internet.  All day i was unable to make any call except for emergency.    Same with Alyssia in town so i know it's not just this Hill.   So....if i don't appear,  this would be why.   I guess we just wait.   am glad i was able to get through and post this tonight.

 

default: i don't know how

in Jude's Appearing and Disappearing place the other day,  she put the thought of excuses.    and i have held that ever since.  So in  these days before the new year,  i am thinking.   and i'll just cut to the chase.    

it's been a long time since i could post pics of Cloths over in that little Side Bar Shop which worked great for a long time.  I guess it's been since i began taking pics with the phone which means since i got such a phone which means since i came here.  Which is 4 years ago.   Before that,  i almost always could make a Cloth that some one wanted and thereby have some little money aside from the $774 social security.   I could buy a book,  i could buy seeds.  I could __________.    it was good.     so. ...i guess  i could somehow figure out how to upload pics into that Shop.  even tho right now,    i don't know how.    But then too,  i think, many people who come here to Windthread already have something i've made.     they don't need  another.   and it goes on.  All the reasons i 

  can't.

but where that's gotten to is that i also don't need more and more Cloths.   i can't just keep making and keeping.   But.....i LOVE making them.    I have really been thinking.   getting to   the   I Don't Know How   and then  to the it Probably Wouldn't Work anyway,     but

just standing there.   i am just staying standing there.

LaceLady sent me a totally great card.   as a gift...still in it's sleeve.   She does this now and then.  I love this.   A lot.   This artist has an Etsy Shop.   I looked there.   Beauty Full.   and then i thought...but i don't want to get caught up in making a Lot of Anything....any kind of   "product".   I want to make Cloths when they "come",  i want to draw stuff when the drawings "come".

and maybe too....i want to see what they would look like as Cards.   So      I don't know how.  I don't know if it would work.

but there's a copy shop in town.   Maybe i can just go talk to them.  Ask questions.  Get actual answers.   This IS the 77 Year.  Above are 14 Invocation Cloths.  Each could be a Card.   ?   7 plus 7  =  14.    good number energy.   Maybe?    Maybe i'll try

or

maybe i just don't know how and anyway,  maybe it wouldn't "work".

 

 

 

 

cautious

What is it?,  that i want from the Inktense pencils?   How much     do i want?    I don't know.   So all i can do is.....see what happens.    I like its name...Ionian Green.   

 

so.....maybe?

i think it's a FIX?    Jude went IN and changed some things.  Deb G and Liz said things that were like in code,  that gave me the wherewithall to be   BOLD   as daughter Jenny might say in her way...     oh,  so Bold,  Ma.    I took a deep breath and Clicked some stuff,   having no idea,  but just a thin intuition of maybe.     

if it IS a Fix and if life can go on,    then.....this has been a Given opportunity to understand more....to become clearer.  About what stuff means to me.   What i think i mean to stuff.

Jude had some questions today that were there and then were not.  Spirit Cloth     Good Questions.   and related to all the above.

I am glad i can be here tonight.   

here it is again

she wrote that...here it is again.    Jude.   Went IN To Windthread, here,    has done that a few times before,    and somehow turned the pic.    I was ecstatic....and tried this morning....but no.    I don't know what she did.  But i can't replicate.   and so.

What it does say is that it is POSSIBLE.   and in this moment,  i gratefully take that.   Things remain possible.   Good Then.

THANK YOU Jude,  you know,   beyond.........

so.

here it is.   it's too hard to go through the whole thing so it makes any sense.   In a small  effort....for couple years now, due to something unknown, i have had to go through all these steps to turn any pic upright...orient.   I got used to that.     and then,

a while back,  when i log into typepad,  it's all in spanish.    I got used to that.....just knowing which things to click on,  even if i didn't know the spanish.    But then...yesterday,    the pic will not turn.   There is a pop up box that says:  Page Unresponsive.

Duh.

so i have no clue.   As i said the other day....Alyssia is out of spoons.   I won't ask her.   So for now....i just need to be gone i guess.

I love You All.   I love this world.   I love.

typepad is down

r a i n

 

Every Thing is about Rain.   it's been days now and will continue.   The most rain in all my time here.  The rain that is NEEDED.   As  i've said before,  the day is according to the hourly forecast....the Goats needs,  Talkie,  Puppy and Tay.   Rain says when i can and can't.  Rain rules.    There will be   single intermitant Glorious days  of some SUN  but  this year,  i am surrendering to Rain. My desert self is no longer  desperate for Sun.   it will come.    So what might Rain look like?,     she is female to me,   what might she look like?,   This was quick.  a minute or two...maybe i'll spend some time,  maybe that will make it all even that much more  easy for me to .......embrace.   See her as an Elemental sister.