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Garden thoughts #1 2023

 

 

 

it's a big book.  coffee table type.   Beauty FULL book.   i should take more pics.     or      i should take pics of food i 

cook.

Make.

Food.   i love it.  love "ethnic" foods.  Most of all maybe i love Indian food.   Having been there,  where the very air you breathe is food.    Spice.   Making.   Making food.  Food being made.

all of us love indian food.   There is no place ie a restaurant for it here.   There is one in Chico.   i don't go to Chico.    I have no spices anymore.    I think of whole cardomom.   What it does first sauteed in ghee and then simmering long in a curry.  A simple spice but i haven't had any for maybe 6 years.   Why.    Food takes time.     

Rest as Resistance

slow cooking is a certain kind of Rest.   it asks things of us.   to not hurry.   to focus,   to attend to the happenings in the pot or pan,  to Smell the ongoing of the transformation of ingredients as they marry..or as someone recently said,  become friendly.

Maybe this is the Year that i will give self to making Indian Food.  To really going slow,  taking the time to let it teach me.   Back in N Mex i could drive to Albuquerque to World Market for spices.   Here,  in fancy California,  i'd maybe find these in Sacramento,  almost 2 hours away.    OR,  i can get them

on line.

how do i feel about that?

i looked,  last night,  and learned about Hing.    Something to be said about and for   On Line.

 

it has rained.   All day.   the forecast is

Rain

talisman

At the Post Office.   

Maria found this California Key Chain at her Flea Market in Belgium.   The Thread is Strong.

her  eco  dye cloth,  blackberries and  leaf.    

 

for my own blanket

it happened again.   Yesterday....the NYT to help me think about Covid.  Today,  it's NPR to surprise me.   To help me think about Resistance.   About all that i have been working through is in fact,   Resistance.

and of course.   it began this morning at first light with 1  2  and  3.    the quiet Beauty of how things are.  and then....3 insisted.  To be amidst the Quiet,   the cloth i have always called,  in my own mind,  not aloud,  always called the Warrior cloth.  Never aloud because of misinterpretation...warrior...concept of warrior... This, .the Stand and Face What You Know kind of woman warrior.  The No Te Rindas warrior woman.    we could use the thing of        Resistance.    i wish i could have worn the dress.   it didn't fit.  But this allows it to be here now,  in this way.  This morning.  in the days of the coming of the New Year,  so in need of understanding this kind of     Resistance.   

4 was immediately there.   But i looked and looked for what seemed like forever for 5 which i remembered but couldn't picture,  but knew i would recognize.     And finally...yes.   5.     and to Stop      at this point.   Sit with this much.   Let them be fully what they Are.

NPR All Things Considered.   How to think about rest as a form of resistance.  Shereen Marisol Meraji interview with Trisha Hersey.   

Rest as Resistance

Our productivity equates to our worth.

......,   my productivity equates to my sense of self worth.     productivity means  Making.    I must be Making.

this is going to take time.   deep time.   but it's the answer to so much that i wasn't understanding.       even in the cloth making,   the  buying into capitalism,  the driver of this culture.      

Another Atmospheric River.   Deluge.     HUGE WIND.   making these thoughts even more clear.

i look forward to tomorrow,  to 6.   i have no idea.

toward a new year

there are MANY spirals.  i think Enough.   I can make some now for my own blanket,  of things i love in their own order.   I think so.   

and as it goes,   NYT wrote me an article re my thoughts about covid protocol.  This morning it was there.   What It's Like Now That Many Have Moved On.    helping me become easier with it all.   How it's up to me to do what i need to do.  But be easier on those who need to move on...move on,  maybe a kind of    Just Going.   ok.   

Rain has begun again.   Puppy just came in.

there's a movie     Women Talking

return

there's no good reason to say much about Christmas.   The kids of course LOVE christmas.   I was totally ready this year to love their love of christmas,  ready to set out to Alyssia's where everyone was gathering when she called to say that Veronica tested positive for Covid.   i didn't go.    and i was given a day i'd not expected and spent time in odd ways.   But did simply return to the Spirals.   it felt like home.   This one,  such a perfect Do Not Match.   and now to continue.

a What If day

so

evidence she was here.   table decoration.

 

silence is golden

life forms

 

she wanted to stay another night.  We sang a lot*. and even tho heavy fog,  we went to the black spider web swing.  There is lichen Everywhere,  mushrooms.    Mended Monkey's neck.  Minnie Mouse's underpants and a jacket pocket.   

*of all things,  along to I'll Fly Away from Oh Brother Where Are Thou...?.....She loved it and did and undid the velcro closure on her boot in time to the music...it sounded like a washboard.    if we were a tic tok we would be viral.

12~21~2022

We made trees.    sleep over.    tomorrow,  a picnic if it doesn't rain.