I woke, put on the kettle, looked at the headlines, made the tea ... read Jude's post. read it again. stared. what was i seeing? drank the tea while continuing to look and wonder. As has become my habit, went back for the "Little Sleep". 20 minutes and waking again, as it always seems to go, i understood something. This time it was set into motion by the pic in her post that didn't have anything to do with what i thought i saw....it was instead, an answer to what i hadn't even asked.
about how things have come to be in the last months...no order, no plan, no figuring out. Learning to live like that. Learning to
live. just live. Live the day, As Is.
the bouquet is from a quart zip lock of scraps that i had tucked in there as i went along with the Spiral Blanket, there are 2, one for those a bit larger. They have stayed in the Ready to Go Evac Basket at the end of the table bench. i just left it there all winter. Here it is again. Fire Season. That winter of RAIN, the repeating Atmospheric Rivers, the GREEEEN of the last month and now the sudden browning, Fire Season. Somehow, Jude's post was a key. to seeing how i am ready to do it all differently. and how i don't know at all what that means. But it is not about figuring anything out. but rather, just living. Every day, in love with Life. As Is.
