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possibilities

good thing there was yesterday because this is today.  Very early.   The rest of the day was sky river,   on into  evening.  And good that i took a lot of pics of the Blanket.     When i look at them today,    it's very different.   i see possibilities.   and i see what i saw all along,   all the pieces of cloth i Love.   Today is  good.

and the "little sleep" gave the thought of what if........what if there are two rows of 4 at the top and same at the bottom ,  looking at it vertically,    and in between  one row of 3....the center spiral of which would be a Metta Spiral???    Yesterday was day 28,  the last day of  Sharon Salzberg's  Real Happiness Meditation Challenge.   I will miss her very much....the Teaching,   the guided meditation first thing every morning and repeated  in the days.   It all remains available until May 31.  I intend to Begin Again on March 1,   tomorrow.   and maybe while i listen,   see what a Metta Spiral might be like?

the road in the pic above is Carefree Way.   that's the Plumcot tree,   just beginning to blossom.   

 

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it occurred to me  out of the blue that      Maybe    the picnic table down at A  might be large enough to lay it out on and get it pinned.   Off i went and it was long enough,  but not wide enough,    BUT   it's very clean there.....earth all  with gravel and ground cover which this year is almost all stork's bill.    First i pinned them a little apart from one another,  how i imagined i wanted them......but   not.   So this way and i was missing one and probably two   but it was good enough to finally Begin.

but

i don't really             like     it.    I don't know why.    i LOVE each spiral individually so it doesn't make sense.   But i don't.   So,  now what.   and remember,  i have enough spirals made for 2 more this size....for Jenny and Alyssia......    eee....

it's supposed to RAIN now for the next 10 days,   why i was hoping this would work.   Maybe i'll just make the adjustments that are needed   and     go.    Begin.   

abundance

that community of mushrooms i mentioned.    i really want/need to find           a person          who i can take an example to.  That could tell me if they are edible or not?    All the identification sources i have do not leave me confident.    This would be just Great if they were....something to look forward to at the end of Rain Seasons.   And funny,   these pics make clear just how much the pine needles  are present..      before the planting,    augmenting the soil,   they need to be cleared   which is done by  raking through,  over and over with my fingers.   

a facebook memory

Belen,   NM     this pic appeared today as a   Memory    no known reason    so i          accept    and   know it's   for   "some"  reason

Alyssia is maybe 8   so that would make Jeff  6     or maybe 9 and  7     They brought Petunias

I had just moved there,   from El Cerro Mission.   lived there maybe 3 months  before moving to Polvadera.         What's important tho is that    Everywhere     the first thing always was 

the Garden

here,   that birdbath arrangement.   that got moved to so many places.    and then the arranging of stones.         

Just like now,  the stones                              Birdbath got left behind.

 

today

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• it was a matinee.    Jenny,  Alyssia and i.     a small but very nice theater space.     10 women on the stage   the youngest graduating highschool this year             i am sitting here in the dark,  still thinking about it.    There's so many stories  our vaginas would tell

B garden

even with so little sun

haven't been there since sometime in January   and today.....warm   and 2 bees even      Brought some of the sludge up from that event at Jack's feed shed and unloaded in the new bed   that i imagine might be for leafy greens  

in last season's tomato bed....a thriving colony of mushrooms that i hope will finish their lives soon enough so i can add a significant amount of new soil         i'll wait                         and tonight i'll make the list of seedlings to order from Alyssia's friend Misty"s  new greenhouse            There is no              plan.     There is a hope of setting a drip system in place?   maybe    but no plan.   Will play it all by ear.    Plantain remains strong.

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intoxicating

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• clearing space in front of the door of the feed shed at Jack Flash's Place  in preparation for the bales of grass hay coming tomorrow.   Knowing it would be       work.    The deluge of Rain this last week  upon all that has been coming steady for so long,   how i've fed all Goats hay down there frequently       and so a build up of  scrap hay and manure  becoming sludge.  Soggy.   so hoe it up and then rake,   uphill   and far enough to the side at the top.   Work.   and i took the Intention of the week two of the Meditation Challenge....the Body....Breath and the body   but it was un necessary because as soon as i began there was the just incredible FRAGRANCE of decomposing,  becoming  EARTH.....just absolutely Wonder Full,  the SMELL  as the SUN poured down      I'll load it on the small sled and take it to B Garden to finish off that new space i'd begun...for planting in the next month or so.   The beauty of Goat manure....it has no smell of it's own,   unlike horse or cow,  does not need aging before use....and              it's already happening       i think this is      Real Happiness.

be with

squat

breathe

with

Real

  

 gift from the Storm

and then     today      from nowhere,       maybe i'll start saying it this way again,   like i did for so long.....calling     IT    the Universe.....or maybe call    IT     The Mystery    ?     and my loved friend Raina and i used to call   IT     the god Thing

but...from there,        i am breathing,   mind wandering  and               the word    concept.    which went to   conceptual   and then,  non~conceptual and i google and there is          non~conceptual awareness      and    and on....to   Direct Non~conceptual Awareness and           on      typing that in      some  utube boxes  and i click          and who shows up?   Eckhart Tolle!   who i haven't thought of in maybe 20 years?       U tube       Direct Experience and the Deeper Nonconceptual Knowing

dear Him,   there he is,   talking about  what i've just called     the Other Dimension

so   i don't need to figure out "how to say it".    it's already there.   i can just go along     Experiencing     it.    and being amazed by the whole of everything,   how Everything is just there.   Waiting for us.