windthread

what If?

i opened the sketch book.    it's been a while.    and here was where i'd left off.     Sat      looking.    Liking this.   Very Much.    and then,  Out of the Blue,    i wondered......what If?,    these figures were                 animated.      Like.....stood up,   and began 

Doing        things.?      What would they        do?       Is it possible that i might be able to draw that?   as in    repeat the drawing of this Entity i called    Imagination    in some kind of continuing way?      "her",  i know i could       but.....Imagination?    This is a huge question      and i want to know more about it.....what does it mean that i'm asking?,   could i possibly DO IT?    

so i  carried these questions as i went into the day....which was in the Garden.   on the weekend i'd found some abandoned fencing that i'd been hoping for.....to make Trellis for the cucumbers and the lone Green Bean that came up from seed.....but it had been rolled tight  and didn't want to straighten.   And if i'd been someone else,  i would  have weighed it down  on a place of level ground...maybe rocks?.......and stretched it square by square  flat    but.....i am not someone else,  so i began the Struggle,  trying to pound the Fence Staples in with a hammer,   hold the first end in place long enough to stretch it a little without having it snap back into it's  familiar coiled form and in that,   decapitating,  or totally ripping off the entire body of the  seedling plants.....it's too much to try to describe.    But at one point i thought.....too bad  this is not some kind of TikTok   or something....it would go Viral.....this old woman in deep challenge with fencing,  not giving up   not giving up    and finally DOING IT   by also tying string guy lines out from the top of the fencing ,   out    to other staples hammered into the ground ,    with string...    to ease the pressure    3 hours  but got it done.   Enough for today.    Plants are safe.   OR,  i think so.    and lesson learned..    I'd thought....no need to put up the trellis before i set the seedlings in,   it takes them a while to reach vining .....because i couldn't find the fencing....but that didn't take into account the WILL of the fencing.....the vulnerability of the seedlings.       Maybe by next year i will have    learned       that  just pushing ahead isn't the greatest idea.    go  slow.   To   go slow.   Mindfully.   

 

and i've finished the above.    Sit here.   In the dark.    there is this soft rushing sound of wind.   Minnow is dreaming...her legs twitching,   she makes small sounds.....                go back to the beginning.   Imagination.    What would this Entity have been doing as i was deep into the struggle with the fencing?    I'll close my eyes and see what comes....but right away,   ........   there is no  "speech".......Imagination,  They,   have no audible speech.    They  "speak"  in mind image...transmission of images.   mind to mind.     and by gesture,   by Doing.     ok.    but,   wait!   They do make some kind of humming  sound.        ok.     enough for now.

sunday

   

    they take us at our word.    You can do it,   we say.     And they do.                             

perfect. so perfect.

Earth life

i don't know how this comes across if you don't know what it is.....does it look like           any   thing?     It's  the broken off trunk of the great Grey Pine.....that broke,  suddenly,  how they do    i guess  3 years ago     Over 100 ft tall.     they just break.  crashing down to the Earth.   It's what they do.     Their root systems delicate for the Beingness of Them.........   Why?  who knows

and to the eye,   it looks much the same as when it fell.   But standing there,  then squatting,    there is an Energy Field.....an Aura.....of just SO MUCH happening      a sense of how it is that things live and oh so slowly          change       back        into    the Earth they came from     how so exquisitely LONG this takes    how Time    in Earth Sense    is so different from   our  understanding of it     

Go to CatherinE's  blog....Gemtactics.net   to see her post of  5/10   Framed Golden Houses     so Beauty FULL

 

 

pomegranate

 

i think there will be eleven.

and the red flower from a few days ago.   Marti's plant.    Salvia greggii

the All that it is

 

 

 

very early,  i listened to Episode 4  of  Joanna Macy"s podcasts:  There is No Future if We Go Numb    so grateful to her for her HONESTY   her Fearlessness to be REAL in the fullness of , the ALL of what it means to love this Earth....LOVE this Earth   and sitting with this and sitting with the subsequent flow of my What If.....  What If it might  also be TRUE that the Glorious Mind of the Universe is watching...............................

and through the screen door,  at an angle i saw a shape, a form,  out there....sailing,  fluttering,   hovering,  spinning

was it a bird?,   a moth?,   a butterfly?   ??????????????????    i  could not identify the form,  the movement.....???????

I thought   ................What if it is a VISITATION     ????   ???       the Universe.    saying       yes,  grace,        Yes.                                    i went  out and approached it....it continued        and then.....came low enough....in front of that horse trailer......    a leaf.          Suspended  somehow by some absolutely invisible thread....a web thread of something.....       i could not see    could not see no matter how hard i tried to look,   could not see the web thread

it was 93 degrees today.   All the GREEN is browning,  the grasses have set seed.   this evening,  the first of the odd sound alerts from the Fire app.  of this   season.     5 acres becoming 25 in 11 minutes    not far away    Spiral.     it is a  Spiral

 

 

gratitude for repetition

the first Phillip of 2024         on the arm of the faux adirondack chair  at B Garden.    where i put my hand when standing up.  I could have squashed him.   But he sent out enough of an energy alert and for no known reason to me,  i looked.   Lo and Behold.

the first spring i was here there were MANY Phillips.   at the beginning,   there was the one,   that dangled down on a thread of silk from the Morning Tree and we all marveled.    Julian,  who would have been 8 i think?,   said    Oh,   it's Phillip.    and then on.  The many that year.   not so many since,   but always some.   all referred to as the Phillips.      The Phillips have come,   we say.   about a half inch....small,    but reassuring in that they come.   in a timely seasonal manner that says all is still sorta well.  or,   Well Enough.

see if you can find

We Are The Great Turning   podcasts      Joanna Macy and Jessica Serrante

me

 

my son sent me this last night.   He also called.   We talked.     He is Giana's father.    Not sure what he had in mind when he sent this.   in the conversation he said it's framed.   on a wall at their house in Colorado.   as i understand,  he has a lot of pics his father took.    i have a vague memory of this...seeing this before           This would be when i was probably 19 or 2o.  Sleeping Bear Sand Dunes,   Lake Michigan.   before we were married.                      the 60's.   when i was   uhhhhhh,   beginning to ....to.....  build my Self.    That's a strange word.   Build.   but i like it.   Build my Self.   Beginning to Build  my Self.    Recently it seems that there is going to be a kind of RE View of things.    i'm just being Open for it...but to RE VIEW  how it is that i came to be where i am today.   Where all i've been.    

 

so. they say Mother's Day

 

these  "holidays"       that i have so many  Opinions about....but they still keep on coming,  year after year and here we were,  another   "mother's day"         and the three of us spent last eve pouring over the viet namese food menue which is huge,  so many possibilities and finally came up with an order   and then when Jenny went to the place,  there was a Closed sign.   She sat out front and called and called and finally got a pick up and she said....will you be opening soon?  and the response was.... Did you read the sign?   We're closed.      so    oh   eee    so we ended up with  Philly cheesesteak sandwich and Greens.....   was good and it was 85    We went over  to the creek.    First time this year.   Jenny brought the floaties.      I was a Glorious day....Minnow had never seen water like this before but   LEAPT     and   SWAM   and Julian....Julian...in his UnFolding Self   got In and it was FINE and FINE and FINE.   and more Fine.....so.....              we did it.

 

 

they

their stems are over a foot tall,   with 2 or 3  long very slender leaves that almost always have flattened down horizontal on the ground.   just standing there,   being quietly BeautyFULL.   i love them., very much