a prayer for sadness that cannot be avoided, a prayer to continue to SEE the antidote to "unnecessary grief"....? What do i mean by that? Maybe self indulgent grief...Madia speaks to that
I have been thinking, yesterday, maybe the day before, Today. have been thinking what the difference is, Here, on this Hill and There, the desert of Polvadera New Mexico. All this might change, as i understand more, but for this moment, I think about how that Place in New Mexico....how i created it. I did. How it had been a place of nothing but sand. And i came there and i brought things and i changed it. So much, there was nothing. No rocks or sticks. I brought them. How it had been a seasonal flood plain for the Rio Grande River, long before i came and then when the Rio Grande was captured and held captive, it became nothing but sand. and I changed it. and the changes brought Response. But still, in a certain way were artificial. Un self sustaining.
Here, i am guest on a Place of Planet that has been its Self since time began here. Was lived WITH, in reciprocity, by First Peoples, but in reciprocity, was honored and lived WITH. Trees here are OLD. but young too, i would think, maybe how many trees have fallen and become Earth over time. Covering the granite that is underlying everything. How the trees now, tho old, are young.
